had lunch wit kevin,ailin,chenjie n' laota today.. joined their lesson for while..wow!!fuck man!!so many xiao'deng doin' business course ohh..tooobad..i'm not a business'student..should i take de business as my minors?? lol..
long way to go..hah..fuckin'tired..
nitenite!!

first...if you havent caught "shootEmUp" go catch it..its now showin' in cinemas..its rather..
umms..comment?? just 1 word - "pui"...pu-ki-ma movie for cyrus...
caught de movie wit ivan last saturday...
ivan - de movie name oso 'leong' than other...lol..
anyhow..people think differently..you might love it,who know..

yeah!! i've already enough shits to deal wit now.. everythin'...shucks!!
i didnt feel depression today..supposed i'd to...
lol..cyrus failed 2midterm...stil got another 2 dono leh...
intro'social psy - 9.3/30
intro'abnormal psy,HumanD - 9.5/30 ...
goodgoodgood..wel done man!!get ready 3k for retake lah..lol..
cyrus - don think so much man..work harder for de final..cheer'up..
you know..cyrus stil comforted other leh...n' i get comforted by myself..lol..

startin' to accept the fact that i'm not hotstuffs at all n' that i have many many ugly flaws..i'm sucha trobled+stupid boy hoh..who agrees that cyrus is stupid? raise your hands..i raise my own hand,BOTH HANDS!! don agrees?then fuck'off as usual loh..
the last thing i need now is for all the small n' unnecessary things to go wrong...try my best to pass..i don have 3k for retake..i don wan!!
de reward i get hoh...after school...stay back in library..work harder til nite..fom now!!yay..wonderful!!

i noticed it..wen i'm emo emo i eat lots...lol..
stupid sean bought de lollipops for cyrus fom taiwan...pu-ki-ma betul lah..
wait for my 'goodnite' ??
just fuck'off ...lol...

i'm not de mood surveyin' instrument...i dono your guys mood..
i'd just lived my life the way i wan to be...whoever don like just fuck'off..who care..
cyrus new life resolution is to stop annoyin' everyone around him...how dumb i could be...
as long as i wan to...
i have a life...i suggest you get one tooo...

don think wanna home after school today..tired but gone starbucks for 'online..damn enjoyed...
shits...cao ji bai..i just wanna talk de unrefined's words cos i'm moody...can??fuck you!!
talk no more..fuck'off!!!

p/s - got extra 0.5% for LLS101..lol..wat de fuck?? o.5% =.='' per100% then see nth loh!!watever lahh...it's FREE!!you know wat is free!!

I'd actually finished writin' an entry bout my family issue n' was about to publish it..then i stop myself fom publishing it out..no why...as usual..i'm not used to talk bout this..wanna know..pay cyrus 500buck lohh...hah..not bad lah..ugly fun..lol..

if you're hurt,wat would you do? i really hope got sum1 beside n' guide me how to do,i run out of idea..everythin's blank but scare..i felt terrible..horrible...pathetic...i just need a hug..but now okay olrd..lol..fuck'man!!
i didnt sleep a single wink this few days due to my family pro...it's better now..
no matter how much you pray to the god,star..chicken..your dog..de shit n' etc...it just couldn't happen, just didnt come true..lol..consider i'm a atheist...but i'm stil goin' to continue doin' it,couse i belif it...'ahmen..

ooppsshit!!cant sign in de fuckin'msn again...but i'd just shown de busy'away status wen i online..wat to chat..stupid topic?? pls don wastin' my time..keep to ask de same Q always..fuck'you man!!

anyhow..started to rushin' my assign' again...don think wanna burn de midnite oil for that anymore..pray again..lol...
nitenite everyshitss..

pick myself up...cyrus cant fall down..i tol myself i must keep up...any fuckin' reason..i have to be tough...this is wat can i do...started fom scratch again but good things never seems to go my way...i feel that god is picking on me,is this some test? god,then i accept all de shits you'd given me..thank you so much..

i seldom talk about my family but truth is the situation is really fuckin'bad...how many of you out there can understand? not many..no one maybe...

i didnt blame you my dearest kok..i cant figure all de shit you'd done,i didnt blame you,although there is so much hate in me that i dont know how to exhaust all this..but i stil love you,longer than 4ever...cos you're de only brother for cyrus..i didnt blame anyone but myself...

talking to my mom really made me feel a whole lot lighter -in the heart- because she has been through more than me n' the amount of pain she had withstand is unbelievable...i cried to my mum today..soli for made you woli again...i know it's selfish to leave my mommy behind but i don't want to be a burden to her..soli mum..cyrus knows how to tcare of himself..wen i'm down,i can always cound on my mum bcos she's always there wen i need her...thank mom,i love you..

i was talking about my family issues??yes i do..

the emotional trauma is way too big for me to handle,there is so much hate in me that i don't know how to exhaust all this..i’m a cheerful happy-go-lucky guy..but goods things never seems to go my way recently…cos i’m unhappy??…unhappy-got not- lucky? so i'd choose to be happy regardless; but some side effects are unavoidable...i'd hang on as long as i'm still alive, i'd continue to spread joy and be happy regardless of my health.. i'd cherish every moment of what i'm left with*lol..sound like i'm goin' to die soon...i don't wanna spend my life jaded, waiting to wake up one day n' find that i let all of these years go by wasted..i don't wanna keep on wishing, missing the still of the morning...the color of the night..i ain't spending no more time wasted..

cannot study mood happen to me recently..i got no motivation on study,i dono wat is happenin' seriously...but i have to study..thank for my fres bein' wit me...you guys touch me alots..once again..i have to be tough...i pray again to de stupid god..

no matter how much of my life has changed...i still picture myself sitting there alone..

fuck de world...

cyrus didnt cries...lol...
fuckin'tough..cant predict wen i'll down again...
anytime..any'mins..anywre...
family'pro+studies'pro+personal'pro = ROCK...lol..
no fret..cyrus is fine...he is not down...
life doesn't stop...i have to keep'up myself...
every'mins..every'wre...i have to...
be tough...big boy dont cries..
i stil hate myself...hatehatehate!!!
don ask why..lazy to explain...
be tough!!

cyrus didnt go clubbin as promised..lol...but went bangsar' pub for happy hour..
2030..stil early...
bout 2200..i think we've drunk..who stil awake??
cyrus cant drinks anymore...pls!! promise i cant be drunk!!

cyrus..ivan..edwin..kayen...playin' card..1..2.3..4..5..6jars beer for 4guys =.="

1230..dancin' at de pub..who care...lol..

just planned for happy hour..but..eventually become clubbin'...

time check -0200...
private'no..1st come to my mind-citibank?? my card's outstandin' again??i known i didnt pay for long...but it's 2a.m!!nonono..
caller- ma de!!
cyrus- ohh...fuck you man!!so amazin' you called cyrus...i know you're ray lah wen i heard de 'ma de'..lol..so happy you cal cyrus fom UK..but too expensive lahh..sadly,i cant really heard wat were you talkin' bout...
thank ray..mis you ahh..especially wen cyrus need a person for cries..you'd gone bout month lohh...fuckin'tough rite..your called reminded cyrus it's time to study,to continue my work..hahahh..remember wat cyrus tol you b4??cyrus'll do better than ray...n' cyrus is more tough than b4 loh,don woli...hope that you're doin wel there okay!!
honestly..cyrus really dono who can he cries to wen he's down...be tough fres...
cyrus wanna be tough..be tough+tough+tough+tough..
i can do it...i belif i can...

thank'god!!i got de opportunity to pavilion finally...a new shopping experience...waaa'coolsss!!so big..bigger than my fres' nene'bust..lol+=.='' ...wide corridor pavements...

celebrated alana's birthday on thursday...wat to do besides ktv..brin' forth new idea pls...borin' wit ktv-ing olrd...have you had any good ideas??let cyrus know pls!!

this is wat cyrus presents to lana...disappointin' you??haha...initially cyrus wanted to presents a broken fan...but tooo big!!lol...how do you live without de"ta bian paper''?? moreover you might need it soon wen you broke'up comin'soon...lol..wat a bday's wish...but at least i saw you guy laugh crazed rite..lol..as say..laughing is the best medicine on earth!!*we oso present de cash..totally faint!! n' now i'm waitin' for alana for send me all de pictures we'd taken...
happy birthday - alana -

ivan was here for week,soli for cyus cant get free again...but interestin'stuff have been happenin'....3am sumthin'??ivan was fancy wakin'up at this point of time to online'game..totally insane...stupid enuf...i was like OMG!!! then continue'sleepin'
ivan's recommendation on his fre's blog*actually cyrus forced him to...no1 can un' wat he wrote but cyrus...especially this - "both of them cant get along wit each other but can get along wit other dog,swt..."we were like - ???OMG??then smile'bigbig...de key why cyrus laugh is-- "swt.." ...i know it is too bad to laugh bout this...soli god!!cyrus really did laugh his bangs off you know!!soli everyshit..it's not that i don't want to share de link with you guys...but really too bad to do so, just realised i cant do it actully after de stupid laugh...

anyway, i had a haircut...chopped off my fringe and back, suppose to look more decent and less ah-beng now...mayb lah... compare the difference...yong comment- look innocent n' young,haha...i'm young once again,hope that this pic doesn't show my age...those who disagrees then fuck off loh...i'm talkin' bout you...yap,is you...ivan n' jess...lol...

tot wanna buy myself a bagpack wen i out today...but sadly,i'm broke...anyhow..selamat hari raya to bXbi!

ohohohhhohh....pls!!pls don stop me...
fuckin'high now!!finished de mid'term...who really care de result anyway...fuck'off everythin'...but 1paper down,i was so emo tat day...soli god!!

i was late today...for my exam!!waitin' de bus at kl centre..but all de 82/83busses driver in centre seem to be havin' sex i think...no bus at all!!wat!!fuckin'rush...took a taxi"you need to go fast,break through de stupid traffic'light...thank you so much mr.driver...so amazin'wen he said-all de best n' goodluck ya...i was like- ??? thankyou'thank'you..lol...

oh!!town..i'll be wit you tomolo...mis you so much lah..ktv-ing tomolo..i wonder wat i'm goin' to wear..think that buy de top'man T...mayb just sumthin' simple...so many thing comin'up that require money...stil owe ivan a starbucks'coffee...lol..cos he did de assign' for cyrus...wat bout cyrus??rollin' on de floor..here n' there...n' bloggin'...totally rock!!lol

super love it!! have been long time i never chat wit other loh*consider cyrus is autistic,but de cute1..laugh crazed as it town belongs to us...thank ivan...he is a electronic'eng student,but he tried to read my note n' done it for cyrus...this really touch my heart alots...thank everythin' you'd done for me..especially de assign'..i emphasize again..he isn't a psycho' student but he'd done it more much better than cyrus...just simply read de note...jus a simple theory fom ray can prove why...ray asked cyrus b4- you know why got lots smart'guy in de town,cos have de stupid like cyrus ah!! LOL...cyrus- chao ji bai!!

kevin- cyrus..have you learnt hypnotism...i want learn it for pao'meimei leh...
cyrus- ohh...1 of my lecturer do it everyweek ohh...
kevin- how ah?!
cyrus- ohh..i dono leh..just known half of de class4sleep durin' her lesson...consider is hypnotic??
hey pls!!cyrus emphasize again...i didnt learn this okay...i'd forgotten how many stupids asked me bout this olrd...people...don be so innocent+childish pls!!=.="

lol...double hapi even de only pretty few days...yeah!! fuckin'high+rock!!
super love it!!!

ohwell, cyrus didn't go for replacement class today*friday cause he couldn't get'up on time...soli god!!was feeling very tired...no one will blame me for that cos i'm really tired! didnt sleep de whole nite just to rush the assign' for today's...eventually i hand de rubbish!!lol...went to school gonggong1...
my assign' -commit suicide.. just random done it within 24hrs,woli til i cried inside de lrt back fom school, Dr.xxx...jus lets it be,this is their personal freedom, go ahead...i shouldn't even waste my breathe bein' care bout those useless piece of fuck who think of this way for de problem...plss!!use your butt to think carefully b4 you think of this okay!!but cyrus tried it b4..bluff...damn pissed bout it...but now...ohhh ppl, i lived my life the way i want it to be, until now...i cant just let another unknown ppl or stuff fuckin'change my life, back to b4, i can overcome that...so don woli..i wont play it again...
anyhow i have to thank joseph n' his cousin ssososo much la...thank you guy guide for my assign...muack!!

kevin is back,so bored cos nobody quarrel wit cyrus de time he went back china..he bought cyrus some stupid'snacks,thank kevin...cyrus-made in china like you?? kevin - =.="!! hah...cyrus likes de chinese tea...

exam weeks...done 2papers...stil have 2more to go...biopsy+social'psy...super killer!!have tonnes of theories...cancel de pizza party wit kevin n' rejected de steamboat fom hatty*soli cos cyrus cant get free + tired...cal herni too if wan go,mis her ahh...ohhh...forgotten,she cant eats babi..lol...cos she is babi...babi'herni...n' babi'cyrus...lol....but damansara...how cyrus goin'back so late,he is so cute...later catch by other how?...LOL...

i've noticed that my blog is quite dead,i'm just so caught up wit my school work...that i barely have any free leisure time to myself...wat to blog then,my life is totally just link to it...after de papers i think i'd be much better off...few days for raya...super love it...yeah!!
chlovy they're joinin' another eng'class...they always ask cyrus air their view bout this...cyrus wan join' too actually...wat'crap!!! $800 just for de only pretty'few lesson...sadly...i'm not a rich ass kid like you do..rather read moremoremore books at home...OMG800 =.="

time'check...OMG!! i have to continue my work..
bye babi..

p/s - i mis you so much mommy..cyrus love you!!*will you marry me..lol..

i'm serious!!! i hate exam time!!
fuckin' hate...i love mid'term...
fuck'off everything..kbox.,yamcha..chattin' n' de unbearable stupid'assignment*how if cant finish it...who care...
i hate it...i m serious!!!

once again,i'm depressed...all emo... cyrus hate feelin' like that..
think that give up all de fuckin'unbearable stuff... who care anyway...

undeniable that stress plays a centre role in my life...
jean- sweet heart...stress is a great boaster if you to look it in brightest side...it made you improved..advanced..wiser...you feel stress bcos you have expectation...but my dear,the best come to the least...here is no point for claim 4 give up..when you start in first step..you're obliged to finish it..make your previous effort in vain...keep in on n' on...advance n' advance...it'll make you become better...cheer up...
OMG!!!she stil keeps goin'on her style...looooog-gassss....
anyhow..she's never failed to cheer me up...i hope she is doin' well too..
wat bout ivan part?!stil de same since i known him...
just one-plannin' cyrus, you have to plan for your life...you see...your report showed everything...same wit your life...for me....
cyrus- stop!!ringringring.....enuf for today...lol...terima kasih cikgu..
i was like...happy got lucky...i hate de feel wit schedule...totally like a robot...
then should i say-i have a life,i suggest you get one tooo??sure i wont...thank for your lesson...once again- terima kasih cikgu..LOL...

fail to plan then plan to fail...this is wat my eng'teacher tol me last time...you see..i stil can remember leh...*few month ago onli stupid..ghost cant ingat meh.. =.="

givin'up all my special dreams n' stuff cause they will never come true...cyrus always tel other..no matter how much you pray to the god..star..moon..chicken..shit..n' etc..it just would not happen, just didnt come true...your succeed based on how hard you work for n' strive to it...ermmm...but i'll do it sumtime lah when i'm lack of confident..LOL..stupid...

okay..i have my plan now...de next plan of cyrus- take a shower n' eat cos extremely starvin' now...bluff...afterward become mr.robot ivan..hehe...smile'bigbig...
i'll become de happiest robot in de town...i pray for it again=.="
will you get a plan for you cyrus..yes! i do...smile'bigbig..

goodnite robot...
ohh...happy october ya...