how stupid i was.. left myAssignment aside n' joined it..
ktv-ing 11.00pm-0400am..

anyhow.. hAppYBirThDaY anthony:)

oMg!! RM 1799.00..

saturday-outin'Day:)
mid valley for my MAC..
pavillion IchibanBoshi.. japanessFood again!! yuck!!
please!!can we try other besides japanessRestaurant??
durianMamak-ing at nite..
cyrus become addicted to durian recently!!oMg!!=(


a slackin' week i would say..
except de 2days b4 my assignment due..
I FEeL So GULITY n' UpSET CAN?
how ar? someone please help me?
i think noone can help me except for myself.. hais..
i can't feel any sense of motivation or hope within me lastEntireWeek..
i just don't feel anything..
where has de high motivation cyrus gone to?
can i still be how i used to be?
i feel so uninterested to learn..
i have absolutely NO MOTIVATION..
I AM GOIN' TO SEARCH FOR MY MOTIVATION..
end up missin'Class everytime...
slap me please..
seriously lah.. anyone who cares to slap me now?
i'm like so DEAD can?
i don't have much time left..
just hope tat our psy201 experiment can run smootly nexWeek..
pls return me MyMotivation!!

p/s - had my hairCut today ;(

last nite wasn't good at all..
i wanna appologize to my psy201 group..
especially debbie n' marcus..


i was thinkin' de issue which marcus asked bout..
"do you remember wat Dr.Goh said in de first year first sem?
if you stil cant get along with other.. you have to think bout your final year..
bcos we are psychology student"
psychologyStudent!!!
definitely my anti-social problem is gettin' worse recently...
i think i'm sick in de mind..
n' just refuse to think straight...
thank edwin pointOut my problem last week..
yap..i know de way i think is fuckin' negative...
i'll try to think to de positive ways n 'get rid of bad emulative..NO EMO ANYMORE!!
OH!!de most serious problem is my bad temper...


life isn't as busy for me as it really seems to be actually..
truth be told.. i am still busy but surely..
eventhough i'd out of job for month..but stil have to attend de jibyePUKIMA trainin'..
FOR WAT??
i've taken work at a slower pace because there is still a need to attend school n' my assignment..
i still have to finish it up n' get tat fuckin' degree...
only a year more!!
i can't possibly let those peeps who keeps encouragin' me to down..
especially my mom..
imagine how upset she'll wen i give up again...
i don't turn up..
i would have given up a long time ago if i were not cyrus...
thank mom she hasn't gave up on me yet n' i don't wish to see tat happen one fine day..
GO TO SCHOOL!!N" WORK!!
i've made some improvements here and there..
but overall I NEED MORE!
overall...work's fine??but trainin' suck!!
school's fine??
project's fine?? i'd not think it's fine durin' de due date n' exam..
BUT I AM NOT FINE!!
soli mom.. i'm feelin' bad cos you'd cancelled your plan..
really feel bad bout tat.. soli mom..
solisolisolisoli...


i'm goin' to work till i drop fom de next month..
i need MONEY!!!

EmpressCafe-non-Alcohol party..

myBirthday.. hAppYbirThDaY to cYrus...

harry..cheeHua..selina..sYong..alana..romida..ivan..silvia..steve..

stupid jazz..cYrus..danielle..vic..

lol.. pretendin' surprise.. but actually not.. hahah..

2nd round-alcoholParty- the scanlet..we went down to a pub n' i was drunk in de end..

thank for de presents..muackzz..

but..i'm seriously dono wat is this for??
are you purposely wan i throw this rubbish for you harry??

thank for de present guys..
ettusais acne aroma body wash..
ettusais body whitenin' mist..
BVLGARY omnia amethyste perfume..
MAC 50bucks voucher..
n' some rubbish..
soli..cyrus is quite choosy..lol..
thank my mom's 500bucks..
n' i got myself 2 polo-T fom topMan..
thank for those text+cal for cyrus' birthday..
n' soli cyrus wouldnt accept belatedWishes anyway..
jus fuckOff okay together wit your belated wishes:)!!

hAppY birThDaY tO yoU"
danielle..klausner..lawrence..
n' hapiBelated Birthday yinchu-chu (03/03)..
then? hapiBirthDaY in advance -
tyngPang(05/03)..tyngYang(08/03)..

first at all.. welcome MarchDays..
de birthdayMonth of cYrus..but..
i felt tat birthday is jus a pointless part of my life since lastYear..
jus wish to have a silentBirthday anyway ..
i'm seriously gettin' older indeed..
thank mLee for de BVLGARY omnia amethyste perfume..
feel really touch.. since i expect no-present for my birthday..
thank for de care toooo..


besides de messy life.. i'm havin' a new shit to due in my life recently...
planned to move.. yap!!seriously..
de security here is superSAFE!! PUKIMA!!SUCK!!JIBYE!!FUCK!!
but i have no idea wre can i switch to..
honestly.. i'm fuckin' scared of changin'..it's terrible!!
even though my life is messed up..
i'm not thinkin' too much because my life is indeed messedUp..
how do i know my life is messed up n' tat i'm not thinkin' too much?
cos it's my life n' it's not yours..
so i definitely i know it better than you..
look at how stupid people can get..
who want??


i really felt tat no one really understands me n' i never really understood them either..
mayb i'd changed..yap!!definitely i'd changed..
don persist in de point tat why i want tat last time but changed my mind now..
people think differently.. al de time..
i'm no longer de cyrus last time.. i know you guys did change too..
how much can i rely on a friend as i grow older?
de happinessMoment seems to be driftin' further away..
mayb i'm thinkin' tooooooMuch..
it's really depressin' to know tat n' i just seem to hold back myself ..
it just came pourin' down when i lock myself back into tat tiny space i have..
everythin' is in a mess..
my lifestyle..my studies..my work..n' my family...
every little bits n' pieces of my life is in a mess..
n' i can't seem to get them organized n' planned out..
i can't even seem to prioritize de things in my life..
n' i can't even carry out simple everyday plans tat i have..
i'm afraid tat i will be stuck in here forever..
i don't wish to remain in a state like this for de rest of my life...


how would it be like?
i'm goin' to make a change for sure..
it's goin' to happen..
at tat point in time..
i'm not emo..
i'm not sensitive..
i'm not havin' any mood swings..
in case tat everythin' cant move smoothly like wat we wish to be.. how?
i don mind to quit..
since tat we got nth in de end..
since i'm clingin' to my point..
soli for i'm obstinate..


i've been missin' work this couple week anyway..
i've to work harder n' harder for de next..
myStudies as well..


P/S - honestly.. i'm not expect any present for my birthday..
so pls my demon.. save money okay!!