last nite at KL ..
OHH!!NO!! is last nite at KL's 2007...
happy new year eve...
lol..i'm kind of bored thought...yap,i am!!
kinda forgotten wat i'd done for de past few day..same as wat i'd done for de whole 2007...
meant?? no point..yap,i agreed!!lol...

remarks about de past events...
actually i'm happy...gotten wat i wan actually...
my degree in psychology..but annoyed fom my minor degree now..lol..
known newbest fres...yap!!fuck - you!!
ray-have learnt much fom you,but you'd gone UK olrd...
hatty,chlovy,wuney n' kevin-glad to known you 38guys fom my eng'class..n'other..
tolu-de blackblack fre fom Nigeria..
edwinLee-thank for grew cyrus up..don woli..cyrus'll do wat he'd promised..

okay!!after procrastinatin' for so long..i've decided to really find my dream..myself...
yap!! i should..fuck de world!!
GOD..can you hear me??
i've decided to no longer wait you to decide for me..i can decide to belong to my own...
an each meteors can't be apart from my life..i'll have just gotten wat i wan fom my effort..
see cyrus dare to dare not to gets it..rite??
wait for a stars that will appreciate cyrus..
watdefuck!!wait?!are you jokin'...

wat's cyrus fuckin' grownup wishes??
aiya~keep my breathin' to sex better lahh..wishes for those shit ohh??those shits will just didnt come true..am i rite??
gonna live my life i wan to be, feels so good to get it right..so i like what i see when i'm lookin' at me..no stress through de nite..at a time in my life..
ain't worried about if you feel it..got my head on straight..i got my mind right..
ain't gonna let you kill it...you see i wouldn't change my life...my life's just...
fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine...
oooohFine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh~
just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh...

but have to improve oso lah..rite??
fuck'you!!keep you mouth shut!! i know it!!LOL..
as wat i said..let it go..can't let this thin' called love gets away from you, you feel free rite now, goin' to do what you want to do,can't let nobody take its away, okay!!
no time for mopin' around..just keep improve..OKAY!!!

improve'improve' n' keeps improve...
will get hurt augh,but i'll be stronger at least...
oh cyrus!!grow up..behave in a more mature ways..
but stil needs time to grow into de part he's playin'..
grow in wisdom okay!!

thank!! ribuan terima kasih!!
my lovely'family..
my fres..yap!!name it? just you loh..fom A to Z lohh!!
thank for be parts of my life...
people!! cyrus loves you!!fuckin'loves!!

enjoy de last nite at de world of 2007!!
hapiNewYear2008!!

nth can be forever...
de only love fom your family,your mom..
can last forever..longer than forever..
you might think i'm pessimistim..
yap..i do..
love your lovely family more..

hAppY birThDaY - edwin..
happy 21st oHh...big'kidz~
no present fom cyrus..then send you a kiss lah~
muack~haha^^
wish you get wel soon...okay!!
hapi'bDaY..

merry christmas!!
merry x'mas...our christmas eve'...kbox...OMG!!it cost us bout 500bucks!! selina n' evengel...we ate lotss...free beers...at 1st we smuggle VODKA in..but de only beer then cyrus got drunk..lol.. 0000...merry christmas world..1st time my x'mas for greenBox.. haha...cyrus drew "gay..fuck me" for steven...n' "sex" for evengel... n' i drew myself... lucky no..really de lucky no for us..you see..draw a lottery... we got de present fom lucky draw..smile bigbig.. christmas dinner..piZza ohh... cyrus..ivan..selina..steven... act cool...merry christmas anyhow...yeah!!

MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
it's the eve's of Christmas!yeah!!
merry x'mas world..de lovely day for cyrus!!
it's de holidays n' cyrus enjoyin' every single minute of it!
especially christmas!!

let it go...all sadness n' stressful...
cyrus wan de x'mas ful wit de only smilin' n' happiness...
can't let this thin' called love get away from my feel..feel free right now...goin' do what i wan to do...can't let nobody take it away..yap!!from you-from me-from we...
no time for moping around...lol..n' no time for negative vibes, cause i'm winning..
it's been a long week, i put in my hardest gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right...
my grownup christmas wish...hapihapi!!super high!!

have you guys done your christmas shopping?
cyrus hasnt done it yet..cause just came back fom johor last9..
those who wan presents from cyrus..please,forgive me..i didnt really prepare its...but i'm expectin' one in return...lol...
wat to present cyrus?oHH..cash better since i'm broke!!
haha...
once again!!merry christmas world...
enjoy your eve n' christmas oh..
fuck off those sadness n' just smilin' okay..
cyrus is goin' to marry wit any1 who playin' piano wit de christmas song for him..hah..
i love christmas..supersuperly love it!!

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n' my lovely niece-katherite...de apple in my mum's eyes..
pity cyrus always gets scold cos of katherite..cos cyrus likes to bully her...lol...
cyrus n' katherine :) playin' wit her grandmum...my mom lah... my dearest mummy..my lovely niece...love you ohh...lol...

wah!!long time never log online...now log in..
just came back from my 1st jiu mu's funeral...
china held some event to celebrate some taoist thing..held 5days..i was like-wat crapp!!5days??totally fainted..did lots this week..lol..
at 1st we dono how to inform my grandmum bout that...my jiu mu was in hospital for week...
my grandmother arrived..she cried out her name..sayin' why left so early...any1can answer de stupid question..why gone so early..i broke down..lol..grandmum was there holding her body..weeping..n' keep scold why didnt tel her earlier..wat de fuck..tel her earlier??who dare?honestly,we really cant tahan..recommend her record wen she was cryin' n' repeat it again n' again better...lol..al de same thin'...
relatives arrived..weeping..but not non-stop lah, just a while..told myself NOT to cry...actualy i didnt..aunties started to moan..everyone was in tears...cyrus teared silently in one corner...lol..damn act pls!!
every1 was busy...preparin' for the funeral...our eyes were red n' sore...we were both mentally n' physically drained..i was fuckin' pissed wit my stupid useless brother..fuck him!!everythin' asked me to do for him!!
de 2taoist thin' worked differenly in separate days n' group..de 1st 2days taoist thin' was really borin'...OMG!!60pages n' keep readin'..de simply words - "na mo o ni to fo" can sing for mins loh..summore write a chinese character in old form..difficult to un'..nobody tahan it..i was so shy...
1st-my cousin beside me -awaa koko..is page no 11 olrd loh..be absorbed..hah..
after few mins a auty walked to me n' said-you cant stand ah?then passed cyrus a chair..cos cyrus was goyangheregoyangthere...all of my cousin turned to me n' laugh..
after de break time..every1 gone..all disappear so like de harry potter magic..nobody wanna joined de borin' taoist thin' again...hah...too bad..but it was really borin'...worse than bored..lol..cyrus was attend for only time for 2different groups..then run..
the ritual proceeded for few days...whenever grandma n' 1st aunt cried,sound like havin' de cryin' competation,who win then got 10000bucks??but it really saddens us..it's hard not to cry in that atmosphere...but cyrus doesnt wan 'jiajia' n' cries lah..how to??no cryin' mood at all!!
for de younger team..hah..fuck off lah..hilarious parts..we were just playin' card wen free..like celebratin' sumthin'...cyrus lose 50bucks for de last nite..really cried lah..too bad too sad..my money gone!!n' cyrus cried bcos he lookz so tan now!!
yeah, what's gone is already gone..
farewell 1st jiu mu..go in peace..we'll miss you..

my mind's blank now..just asked myself fuck off everythin'..my stupid useless bro' really disappointin' us lots...cyrus really doesnt wan to think bout it anymore!! how dumb i can be??he can goes die n' has his shit stuff back into his ass!!

tired!!ji bai n' fuck off lah!!

1st day for my sem'break..borin' saturday..slept for de entire day...
mis de busy life actually..cyrus not used to be free like tat..
mis de time flooded wit assign'report assign'..lol..
i just love busy life..
have been long time i didnt chat wit tora loh..
thank for playin' de piano for cyrus..
n' this made me feel better..
cyrus loves piano,but too bad i dono perform it...think goin' to marry wit any1 who playin' piano wel.."cant be a doctor then marry 1"..cant playin' piano then marry 1 too loh...lol..
so people,wil you marry me?!lol..

very de finally,de most anticipated holidays are here!!fucking cleared my last paper today..yap, fuck..sumbody pls throw shits or jibai into my face,or slap me..pls..i did sumthin' wat i suppose wont to..good things are meant to be shared,but so soli..i'd like to share de only bad thing for this entry...i've got alot to say..
i've tried to read n' i un' every single part of de question..but wat de fuck was..i lose my mood to answer..just thinkin' of sumthin' else...woli enuf!!then simply done it n' hand up..didnt think didnt check...slap me pls!!hatehatehate..haha..

kbox wit my classmate after de exam...tot wanna fangfeiji cos emoemo all emo n' think wanna walk alone..how bout kbox..i don think i enjoyin' it...emo+culture short...i was like-OMG!!we come for singin' or watchin' de mv??haha..actually i didnt really joined it..2out of 3hour cyrus was outside de room..smokin'..chattin'..cal hatty n' cried to her...once again..cyrus feelin' lousy,feelin' extramely ugly,feelin' unwanted by all,n' he hate himself for bein' like tat..have been thinkin' too much,i'm totally on de verge to suicide..don ask why or wat happened,lazy to explain..this is private n' don be so jibai busybody..fuck-yourself if you're so free..cyrus hate feelin' like tat..
pls god,guide me n' lead me to de rite way..a atheists..but i went to de chinase'temple today n' pray..i cant say wat i did wish for...but i got a "shang shang quan"..n' de auty made me felt shy n' touch me lots -study harder ah..study harder ah..she keep to said...thank auty...
cal ray n' cried to him.. just talk a while,cos de fuckin' digi..cost me 0.93per min cal to UK,wat crap..after 30dec is 3.00per min..farts!!ray says only 0.15per min he cal fom UK ..listen..is RM0.15per min..stupid malaysia..by cheatin' so much olrd but stil a poorest n' jibai country..know why??cos majority are mr.Ba n' miss.Bi ah..n' we cal it BABI...shit'pukima go to hell lah..sue me sue me..comecome n' i suck for you..lol..ugly fun...
n' thank for text me a touchin' replied - who did such stupid stuff to you?fuckin' stupid/...be tough,no worries as i promise..i'll als there wit you.."
thank ray..this is really touch my heart alot..

n' my new life resolution is to stop annoyin' every1 around me...n' fuck off fom de world..i can say good-bye to all i worries from now on!cyrus just wan to be happy..time change everythin'...i think i'll spend even more time now to know myself better..or rather hungry ghosts take me away...

i'm so goin' to enjoy myself,de very last of 2007!!sem break holds bout 3weeks...wat plan do i have??gettin' a trip?soli i'm broke...honestly,no plan!!thinkin' of study de-Practical English Usage which borrow fom ivan...cos he always says -improve your eng'..pls!!okayokay..but de book thick as a dictionary leh...who care!!must do it,within de 3weeks..hope so..or else i'm just slack at home n' stare de ceilin' down again?
but i cant stone at home on holiday can i?i have nth to do.
so cal me date me watever,i'm free...
i just love busy life..

n' selina got a gift- ipoh nano mp3..sosososososo cool man!!cyrus - jual me..lol..n' wen i turn it back n' see..blush!!4G ipod..wat i've seen fom klcc last time 1G=300bucks,2G=500bucks..4G??lol..then cyrus said-forget wat i've sayin' just now lah..haha...watcrap!!900bucks for mp3??soli i'm not rich as u kids..i might need de only 0.5G mp3 then fuckin' enuf,cos i'll just listen de same album n' de onli song..haha..i've listenin' fishleong new'album for month loh..now is "fu xi de tong"..wat a borin' life?who care,i've my life,i suggest you get 1 too..
haha..manage to save up enuf for get myself a mp3..i so wan it!!

-11dEcEmber2007-
b4 i start my entry..i would like to say hAppY birThDaY to my dearest n' prettiest sister...hapi'bday ohh sYong...loln' i look freakin'tired after catchin' de movie at pavillian - 'the golden compass'...nice show??soli for comment nth...fuckin'tired after my exam today,think i was fallin' asleep wen catchin' de movie...how bout my exam?? fuck'off de stupid story lahh...hah...intro to abnormal..dammit paper..lol..back to de movie..dono why..i always link those magic movie to 'harry potter'...think tat all de movie are copy harry's idea...haha..mayb i love h'potter sososo much..yap..love harry potter okay!! forgotten sumthin',i had my haircut...argh my hair,nomore yangchongwei hair...gone!!OMG!!!stupid lohh..cyrus doesnt know how to use de tap..how?? every toilet show de tap diffently...i tot this is de auto 1 mah..
wat you guy think bout de machine...at first i tot it is de maybank ATM machine..blush...this is not withdraw but pay for parkin' okay..stupid delusion...wat de fuck!! i'm fuckin' tired n' blur enuf lah...
once again,i'm depressed..all emo lah...shoot me,i'm thinkin' bout thin' i shoudnt be thinkin' about..those should all burn in hell lah beside my study..

roger said - lyra, you said wan to safe me,you got it!!
suddenly cried wen i heard it fom de movie..cos it linked me to sumthin'else...shit!!yap,linked to shit...i'm fuckin' pissed wit this!!

i wanna shut down,shut down fom de rest of de world!!can feel de stress blastin' into my face...i kinda forgot wat happened de past few day..didnt do much stuff,woli enuf...i have nth to say...woli bout sumthin' i'd not be woli...drivin' to be crazy soon...why all promise made will never been done?? 7eleven stopped provide de24hours servise?? cyrus hate de feelin' like tat...

you're seriously sick in my mind, so please STOP IT!!help cyrus to find sum1 who has he lose...thank...

it's sucha happy friday for me...i'm deeply saddened by the tragic accident which took place in de ATM..lol...actually it was no as serious as wat you guy think lah..but de public'bank service was fuckin' disappointin' me wen asked for helped...all those local'bank used to bully cyrus izit?watever lah...fuckin' public'bank..dammit Pukima bank!!

cyrus might get drowned by the final n' personal pro...wanna cal mummy n' cyr again..but,cyrus doesnt wan to be a burden to her anymore...i know she is woli enuf bout cyrus...especially de exam time...wat she always says is she doesnt wan a very smart or pandai's boy,but don wan a boy who afflicted wit stress or mental disease cause of his study...thank mommy...talkin' to my mom really made me feel a whole lot lighter in the heart...bcos she has been through more than me n' the amount of pain she had withstand is unbelievable..but..soli ah..actualy cyrus doesnt a son as good as wat you think..i'd never tried my hard to do wat i suppose to...soli again..thank for always there for me..
n' finally! i don't know where i've got the drive from to do this...thinkin' sumthin' suppose i dont..exam start fom tomolo, but i havent finished my revision..god bless me..

hmmm, its always nice to be in love but some people got hurt badly in their previous relationship n' now once bitten twice shy, are scared to venture..if you're hurt, what would you do? some has shut off from their friends n' try to screw their own life up as if its not screwed up enuf.. some try looking for a substitute, so that to get over n' move on quicker...
i've heard many bout de love story b4..wat a fuckin'season now..lots of my fres like to get advise bout their stupid love story...but can you guy pls ask my advise besides love?!cyrus doesnt a guy who handle de relationship wel...wat can i reply is - soli for cant help any,cos i can never givin' you guy any good comment but my subjective opinion...n' this is not fair to you guy...soli for cyrus comment nth..do watever you guys wan okay!! goodluck...

i've already enuf shit to deal with now...everythin' n' i really mean EVERYTHING is goin' wron' now..fuck'off every single thin' n' stupid pp...i just wanna concentrate to my exam...
wat is your dream,cyrus?! i wish tat i could leave..1day,in de future...wat bout sum1 stay cause of you?wat will you do?! disrupt his/her future? 2nd case for me..i might asked de 1st..how your life in UK now?you might answer me for de 1st time- i'm fine!!but mis you..de 2nd time - great!!as wat i say,time will tel..you'll know your future is more important than anythin'...
architecture+canada..wat a fuckin' great offer fom your family...pls!!your future is in your hands..think bout it pls...seriously, you'll know cyrus doesnt a perfect guy as wat you think...

mum,cyrus didnt manage to save up enuf for goin' s'pore recently..because you paid me so fuckin'little..lol..just kiddin' lah...
i dono whether its a bonus for my live or not...so there are some changes i'd want to make in my life, for the better of myself n' everyone?? i guess i sorted things out already..

goodluck everyshit!!

fuck you!! i hate rainy day!!
stop rainin' pls...dammit stupid god!!

doin' revision for my final exam...now i'm studyin' til part of personality...
i might ask myself - who i am n' what i am like??i really dono...seriously!!

cyrus mind how other people look at him...think bout him...last time...
but now...i've figured i must stop being such a child for my life...i don care how you guy think of me...i don care bout these conscious,unconscious or wat preconscious...wat i know is " I AM CYRUS"...i try to lived my life de way i wan to be...
easier said than i done...i've stil tryin' now...
of all of our subjective view of life,our view of ourselves is most important to our personalitis...

n' i like this sentence fom de "self-concept"..
-it is ok for the ideal self to be slightly out of reach..then can stimulus us to improve..but,the ideal self is so unrealistically perfect that we know if can never be reached..then we like feel failures-

n' something i saw n' make me burst out into laughter! lol...2words..cannot tahan...de "waxy flexibility"...

i took it fom my text'book...wat you guy think bout this person...lol...i really cant tahan for de stupid action lah actually...muahahah... soli for those who afflicted wit "Catatonic Schizophrenia"...cos i was really burst out into laughter wen i saw this pic...
"although catatonics sometimes experience delusions n' hallucinations,they are often said to exhibit "waxy flexibity" during these stupors-they passively let themselves be placed into any posture n' maintain it..often de individual ceases to talk,appears not to hear what is spoken to them..n' may no longer eat without bein fed.." (Taylor & Fink, 2003, as cited by Benjamin, 2007)...
haha..wat a stupid condition...i don care if it happened indoor..how worst when he is outside n' rainin'...wat bout earthquake?? haha...i think i cant exhibit de same posture even 10mins lahh...somemore so hot n' maintain...hahahaha...soli i'm laughin' for de pic but not de case okay!!
hahahahahahaha.... stupid enuf de pic...lol...

ohh..wait..ohh..see...
finally the month of december is here...
my lovely month - white christmas -
happy december yahh...hohoho...merry x'mas...

found sumthin' very stupid...lol...
ohhsee...i like x'mas...
ohh n' see again!! cyrus like x'mas...lll...

wat??come again!!
you wan this stupid toy?
okayokay..then say "cyrus is handsome" first...
NO!!? hahaha...sure i have my idea n' wan you tel de true..don woli...

okay!! if you guys wan this stupid toy..then answer de Q lah...
cyrus is good enuf lahh...let you know de answer...you can just tag 'handsome' to get de stupid toy...lol...try it...
(click de rite answer for get de stupid toy...lol..)

cyrus is ...
A - handsome
B - ugly
C - cute
D - do not know

lol..thank for vote n' tel de true yah...now you can get de stupid toy for your blog loh...
enjoy oh...bye...
ohh...i like x'mas...