Monday, November 16, 2009

i'd never mention anythin' bout my job.. am i?
seriously.. it's fuckin' tired after lock off everyday..
yap!! fom de 1st day i started workin'..
ohH.. i'm currently workin' for HongLeongBank..
as a Personal Financial Consultant..
wow.. thank god.. de title sound good..
but job.. like hell.. i've to handle whole stupid Products..
Mortgage.. personalLoan.. investmentLink.. insurance.. creditCard.. watever jibye loan..
work like a heavy manual labor..


de whole month has been busy.. even though it really tires me out..
but i feel happy.. tat's bcos wen i'm busy..
there won't be a chance for me to think about anythin' n' i can drift off to sleep easily bcos of how exhausted i am..
it is perfect but i know it's stil learnin' n' i have to keep improvin'..
next time will be better n' better..


got to wake up as early as 6.45 am n' tat's way earlier than any normal schoolin' timings i've ever had..
hopefully.. de stupid job sets a direction for me in my life bcos i don't really want to feel so lost on wat to do with my future anymore..
bankin'Life.. i want a better life.. no longer a normal life..
i just want everythin' to fall into place..


as i take my first step into adulthood..
if there is ever a day i lose myself in de process because of how harsh reality is..
i just want this post to remind me of who i really am n' what makes up me as a person..
hopefully.. changes i wan to make n' de improvements i wan out of my life will happen n' wat i've decided to do fom now on will make it happen..


i'll be fine in no time.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

i'm unhappy..
i dono why i am but there is just this clear sense of unhappiness lingerin' inside of me..
is it really so hard to be happy?
i must be mature in thinkin' n' actions..
i will do so.. i most certainly will but at de sake of my own happiness i rather not..


tired.. i'm growin' weary of de stupid war..
fuckU!!