█ i think my life after 2004 has been wasted in some ways n' in other ways...
it hasn't been really wasted tooo...
since 2008 is just around de corner.. i have to make it better rite?
much better than de past years tat might have probably been wasted away without myself knowin'..
surely.. i have grown up since i'm here bout 5years n' have matured greatly both mentally.. emotionally n' physically...
gain many different perspectives n' there's a vast change in my character since de past...


i guess al of us got de new year resolution..
but sometimes our actions don't necessary translate into de words we said..
actually cyrus has choices... n' we al have choices..
we have got to make them good choice or bad choice..
i don't want to be left hangin' there...
i know.. if i don't make de choice now... de choice makes me..
all these time i'd wasted.. all tat i'm thinkin' about..
somehow.. i don't see de need to write out my resolutions to show it to everyone but...
i wish tat my life can get very buzy soon..
it's good for me anyway..
i love to keep myself busy cos it makes me feel tat i'm makin' full use of my time n' tat i'm not wastin' my life away...
i wish to find back de simplicity in life for now..
my life is complicated enuf..
a lot of overdue ones in fact.
i wish that i'd never wake up to see de light again...
got no reason why i still breathe..
nth cans make my wish come true.. only myself...

goodbye 2008..
i'll miss every bit of de happiness n' laughter de tears n' sadness spent through you al..
i'll cherished all de memories created n' shared with everyone i met along de way..
thank my lovely family ..
thank my derest friends..


now.. to me..
a new year is a new beginnin' but it's seriously of no difference at all..
it's like you are still leavin' in de same time n' place without makin' any changes n' improvements to your life..
hapiNewYear2009..





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█ it's been a couple weeks since i'd last blogged..
0614.. i'm here not bcos i jus woke up but it's bcos i havent turn in yet..
spent de entire day/nite for watchin' movie n' sleepin' n' worryin' bout sumthin'..
gettin' sick .. sufferin' fom de bad cold..
mentally as wel.
finally i'm home..
eventually i got free to bloggin'..
jus wit de very simpleBrief for my last couple weeks..


20/21 - mlee was here.. but i havent got any free time to get out n' talk wit her..
busy wit de JomHeboh maxis roadshow at bukit jalil.. got lotta thin' to chat wit her actually but.. jus think wanna work for de newYear money.. soli bout tat cos i need money so much.. FUCKIN' NEED MONEY!!!
22/23/24 - went back to Johor.. had met my bro finally.. i cant figure al de shit he'd done but i didnt blame anyone n' it's al over.. although there is so much hate in me tat i dono how to exhaust al this.. but i stil love U cos you're my only bro.. i cherish every moment wit my family.. mis my mom n' niece so much...
i seldom talk about my family but truth is de situation is really fuckin'bad.. how many of you out there can understand? not many..no one maybe... wen i'm down.. i can always cound on my mum bcos she's always there wen i need her...thank mom.. i love you..
25 - my favourite season of de year..christmas is over in a flash.. had a peaceful one this year.. spend it at Bangsar pub... i think sayin' merry x'mas now is just weird... not same date what!anyway cyrus got de x'mas bearbearchocolate n' SK ll .. thank..
26 - hapi2year anniversary..
27/28/29 - workin'Days.. workin'workin' n' workin' ... tired+laziestDay..
30 - slackin' at home cos get de badCold..


1 more day n' 2008 will be over..
i cant wait to wave GOODBEY!!jiBYE!!
thinkin' of endUp de cYrus7eleven but..
i'll try to post more even though i think my life is gonna get really busy soon... school re-openin' soon n' my new job..
i think my life will be pack! so pack tat i won't even have time thinkin about pretty problems anymore!
(ignored 3call wit a text..soli)**




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█ world's two different people ..
be able to arrive at de same head to de right??




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█ cyrus bought de smallest christmas tree for himself n' forced ivan+yong+selina+cheeHuo paid $3/pp for de bigger X'mas tree.. lol..

merryX'mas..cYrus loves christmas..

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█ another week has passed ... just like tat!!
yap!!like fuck!!
jus finished de socialpsych paper.. again!! jus like tat!!
slackin' inside library... emoemoemo...n' sleepy..
no motivation for de nextPaper...


cyrus got tons of rubbish to shoutOut about but..
many shits still left undone n' are still waitin' to be completed...
another 3paper revision n' lookin' for de partTimeJob after this 3piece of toilet paper..
sometimes i really wish i'm blessed with more time to complete watever i have to complete..
i don't wish to leave everythin' hangin go through all this again n' again..
resit?? soli i'm not mean tat n' disallow it happen to me..
i just wan to make de best out of everythin' tat i started out with..
endure for a few more days n' make de best out of it n'...
everythin' will be over n' done with..
de only problem is ... why does it seem so hard? WHY??
give me another theory besides "cyrus is a piece of useless fucker"..
cos i'd known it!!besides tat??!!
pls!! cyrus loves THEORIES!!


there was a few nites when i was up till 4/5 in de mornin'..
just to finish at least few chapter...
it's a good read n' i cant stop flippin' de pages n' jus wanna get down to de final page..
blush!! final page of chapter..
thinkin' about it..
it's kinda scary as well since it's de only first book n' i'm already rushin' to finish it...
gosh.. de only half then went to exam..
i still have another 3 more to go!!
will i turn into a robot which doin' nth but read al day or probably be deprived of sleep..
how many weeks i didnt really have a sweetdream??
since de day i started rushin' for my assignmentReport..


probably i'm just not tryin' hard enough..
i'm not goin' to give up on myself when i've come this far..
i'm not gonna give up just yet..
JUST MAKE THE BEST OUT OF EVERYTHING CYRUS!!
cos there's no more turnin' back now..
in short.. things has not been goin' on very smmothly for me recently..
in terms of my emotions..
effected by wat happened to me..


goin' to celebratin' Yong's birthday at KLCC later nite..
hapiBirthday ya:)



p/s -i could totally ignore DE STUPID COMMENT about my LOOK..
FUCK YOU!!






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hapiBirthday - yOng..

█ cheap2$cake..mr.bao's bao..stupid cake..candle..
simple celebratin'..

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█ i don wish to be reminded..
but i am just simply avoidin' all the time..
de only thin' i know i have to do..
is to move on with my life..
i'd known de "fact" for long..
thank de confession today..
:)


p/s - "我是烧焦的面包" -fom minglee msn nick...lol..
funnyfunny..make sense ..we all know it..lol..




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█ cyrus loves X'mas...lovely white christmas..
ivan's christmas tree..
tot is bought for me..plspLspls!!
don put on my table lah if it's not for me..lol..
oMg!!fuckin' love X'mas.. plan for it..

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█ yin..cyrus..alex..anthony..

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█ fuck!! over slept !!
mis de mornin'class AGAIN!!! dammit!!!


arguin' wit ivan whether japan can on DIGI or not..
without 3G..
bet my bottom dollar on digi "can"..
yeah!! ivan..thank for your 100bucks:)



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█ done my 1st final paper today..
stayBack as usual..
things are pretty much de same.. probably slingtly different..
takin' de break for my mind..sufferin' fom mental exhaustion..
how stupid i'm..it reduced me to tears..
why am i so weak? why why why?
i'm suck a fucker who cant stop workin??
i have to live my life flood wit nonStop..
once i'm break.. i'm feelin' nth but an empty..
this feelin' sucks n' it's horrible..
i'm enjoyin' my life choked wit school..assignm'..report..workin..projects..
i cant really bothered wit other besides tat??
de problem stil there even i'm ignorin' it..
nth can do besides bzbzbz..
i hate to think!!
i stil cant find any directions for those in my life..
it strongly affect me in an emotional way..
burst into tears..
stop thinkin..stop de break.. keep movin'..
keep busy-ing my fucked up life..


hope tat it can make myself feel better from deep within..
doent matter it's a smile fom my heart or not..
if only..i could make up for lost time..
i stil appreciate it..
keep non-stop!!


emo.. i love X'mas.. i cant fil any emo into my lovely dEcember..




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█ some people want diamond rings..
some people need three dozen roses..
but all you need is - cyrus cans get 1 day free to you..


soli bout tat...
cyrus ll get himself free after pull through these horible moment of work..
okay?..try my best to have de trip ..
thank for de un'...i'll do wat i'd promised to U..


n' welcome de white christmas December..
cyrus loves december than my bday month..
merry X'mas :)


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