sick of my life..

i am seriously very super tired..

money can buy nth..

feel of emptiness :(

station life~ Hmmm.sucks.

how suckz

working.sleeping.working to targets.

non-stop target.target to money for sure.

entertainment.smallTalks.facebook-ing.kBox-ing.

then everything round back to Targetzz.

but i'm gettin' a hang of it ad.

i stil bored at nite.

寂寞寂寞就好.

i really need a trip.

free from all problems.

okay.don act small talks.

oh and now that i am earning a better amount.

but i am still feeling bored at nite.

i want list!!

Branded.Life.Iphone.Happiness. Camera.House.ZARA.Trip.Top Man.

my laptop is on de way to hell =.=lll

and there is an apple laptop in my wanted list.

feel like getting one.

i am beautiful in every single way..

people lie :)

i have nothin' more to say..

wat's done is done..

i should be on my way..

let's begin a brand new chapter shall we..

cut to feel pain..feel pain to forget de other pain?

for all those lies?

i correct my words..

work to hit target.. hit target to get more money..

more money to more hapi :)

喜歡聽歌　感人的歌　它讓我覺得愛是對的
睡不著　我就醒著　不再讓日子被打亂了
寂寞很吵　我很安靜　情緒很多　我很鎮定
因為投入　所以放棄　不願再被痛醒
固執算不算任性的要求　付出也可能看不到結果
終於你還是選擇了放手　用逃避　讓感情犯錯
喜歡唱歌　動人的歌　它讓我獲得一點心得

得不到　我就放掉 不去碰觸到我的需要
寂寞很吵　我很安靜　情緒很多　我很鎮定
因為投入　所以放棄　不願再被痛醒

承諾算不算任性的要求　人總是不能太容易感動
當愛失去自我失去包容 只想要　從混亂解脫

thank tansy..

i am very sure you think i am crazy and not cyrus wen i say "thank you"..

jus de simple and nice touchin' feel wen people treat me a dinner..

dono why.. mayb i jus need someone to dinner wit me..

anyone??

mayb i am boring wit mee maggi or tabao-ing everyday..

9am-9pm keep workin'..

i hope i can hit de 100club for 2nd time..

and i gettin' more gentle and calm this few days..

i think i had been takin' too much of cough medicine this week for sleepin'..

yap.. de cough medicine contains sedative drug..

and de tranquillizin' effect of gentle and calm..

it can really easily contain my excitement..

i hardly do it without de drug..

i know it would spreadin harmfully to me..

1 more within..

i will quit fom this

i am jus simple..

and i jus wan simple..

don complicated it:)

have been takin' de cough medicine for turn in easily for week..

how long? how long i have to strike out of this?

yup harshly strike it off..

i have to forget everythin' tat reminds me.. everythin'.. everything.. everything!!!

too much damage were done..

time changes everything??

it's wat people say.. it's not true..

doin' things changes things..

not doin' things leaves thing exactly as they were..

wat's de meanin' of last chance?

i had used up all my last chances..

everything come hostility..

and wat does tat mean?

i breached that trust..

i have nothing more to say..

wat's done is done.. whoever's gone is never comin' back..

alrite.. back to de serious emo stuff..

someone just stabbed me in de heart..

i'm not sayin' it's not worth it..

rite now being de old man..

just wants some peace and quiet..
several goals to achieve though..

to gym! i always think exercise strengthen one's mental and physical self..

yup i really need that.. alot..

secondly hmmm.. go to a trip alone..

i admit! i'm gonna do it alone..

i believe i can and i believe i will! lastly..

(yeah i know three's not alot but start small first?)

something less physical..

GET. BACK. INTO. DE. WORKING. MOOD..

from now on, i stand alone..

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動

能重來那就好了

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disappear and disappointed T.T