sean..edwin.. danielle.. cyrus.. jason(camera man)

pavilion starbucks..

as wat i said.. do we really miss each other that much?

we only meet up like 3-4times a year or probably less than that now..

though most of us are in KL .. lol..

tcare fres :)

hapiChineseNewYear..
i'm kinda borin' with Chinese New Year this year cause it's gettin' more n' more simple every year..
mayb i'm gettin' seriously old olrd...
nth to blog about.. this is another pointless entry again..
didnt get back to HOMETOWN this year..
surprisingly.. jus went back in rushin' b4 new year.. for de only few hours.. then went to my uncle home..
cyrus miss you all..
we used to spend de only CNY time together for de secondary school gang..
we can meet up like once a year or probably longer than that now..
when we do meet up.. we say it's because we miss each other but do we really miss each other that much?
if not..why can we go to de extent of not meetin' up for such a long time?
i know that we're all busy with our lives but de closeness that we used to share is really driftin' apart...
sometimes.. i don't even know what's up with de rest of their lives n' what they've been through or what they are goin' through currently..
de happy moments n' de sad moments that we used to share doesn't seem to be happenin' now..
i don't even know what is happenin' to them..
at this very moment.. cyrus mis them so much..
enjoyin' de moment wit tat gang cos i don need to maskin' myself...
i'm tired wit read other mind n' how to protect myself al de time...
yap.. i'm seriously gettin' older.. lol


watchin'TV sleepin for de entire CNY...
no outin' no yamcha no online-ing cos i known nobody there...
when turn n' look everywhere..
everyone is askin' you de same questions.. everyone is sayin' de same thin'..
but sadly.. i can't voice it out n' give an honest answer..
cos' i feel too ashamed...
knowin' that i could have done it n' yet i didn't.. i choose not to back then..
everyone puts on a happy smile n' i'm smilin' back at them..
but deep down feel so alone..
i choose to ignore watever i don wanna to..
worryin' bout my niece n' my mom..
lookin' back at all these years..
have i really worked hard n' motivated myself for whatever i want n' hope for?
what have i done to my 20++ years of life?
what are really my aims n' hopes in life?
do i even know what i want?
seriously... i'm lazy to strugglin' anymore..
de only thin' i wish to do is take good care of my family..
soli mom..

it's time to update this space b4 it turns stale...
for de past few days.. i was really busy because there was so many things to attend n' so many stuff to go...
a strange week i would say.. de weirdess stuff happened...
weirdess?? NO!! it's TOUGH!!
I FELT UPSET =[
don ask me why cos i wish to know why too..
whats right? whats wrong?
i couldn't be bothered about it anymore...
it's all wat my choice.. my decision..
DAMN my ears are hurtin' to wat they said..
but like it or not.. i still gotta continue ..
cos i have to learn fom them.. their experience..
tons of experience fom de group of sluttiest..


i was on de verge of tearin' myself apart wen i got scold..
do you know that?
de feeling whereby your heart just starts to sink when you come to know about somethin'...
somthin' tat you don't wish to hear n' know..
but i just know what it means n' somehow it affected my mood..
be glad tat i have settled my emotions before i got out fom them..
i don't want to let all this emotions take over me..
i dont wanna give up cause of those bimbo.. it doesnt worth..


keep askin' myself..
am i really tryin' my best to improve?
i don't seem to be workin' towards improvin' myself even though i keep sayin' i will..
i know wat's wron' with myself n' i do try to improve but i'll still end up givin' up halfway..why?
wat's really wron' with me..
where's de self discipline tat i need?
where's tat motivation in my life?
why am i always givin' up halfway when i'm startin' to make some improvements?
remember de HELPLESSNESS theory??
you can trust nobody but yourself..
de moment you give up.. who else you can trust?
from de past until now... it has never changed...tat's the fact..
i don know why i love thinkin' so much..
it has always been like this.. isn't it?
i was careless to let myself carried away by my emotions..
i'm not goin' to be the fool for de second time..
don't hate de game..
hate de players of de game..
after de tearin'..
pls move further..
impossible is nth.. it's jus nothin'..


i'm a lil disappointed but it'll keep me goin' n' makin' improvements..
at least ...it has grown a lil more..
hang on there..
if not.. it might just be tat i was thinkin' too much..
but so what? can you ever understand why?
somehow i'm glad...somehow i'm afraid... somehow i'm scared...
somehow i think i'm copin' it well..
tell me how should i feel n' what should i do?

cYrus cafe*

thank ivan for de blog edittin'..

cYrus cafe*

get de bad cold:(




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surprisingly..

i'm up auto' at freakin' early on this weekend..

anyway.. de reason why i'm up this early is because...

i couldnt get to sleep after de CONVERSATION fom 2 fucker outside...

how annoyin' de 2 indian aunt keep talkin'talkin' outside..

blakblakblakblak-non-stop- blakblakblak.. jibye!!

wit de wonderful india tone.. OMG!! fuckU!!

alrite.. recently caught quite a few movies..almost NOT..

anyway.. my 1st movie for 2009 - THEY WAIT..

n'.. workin' for maxis today..

but i don't feel de urge in wantin' to do it anymore...

so i did nth today..

de last workin'day for maxis roadshow?

new part time job for nextweekend..

thank ivan for de cute rabbitNotebook..

cyrus:
A good start of semester ~ good luck!
from- ivan.

p/s - thank lots.. cheeHua..selina..ivan.. for de economic base :)

cYrus7eleven™

psy106 quantitative methods - after AE - D..<50-54>
psy205 social psychology - C-.. <55-59>
psy209 counselin'skill - C ..<60-64>
psy211 human services - AE..
mkt101 principles of marketin' - AE..


thank god..cyrus got D for de psy106 eventually..
if not.. superVERYsangat mafan lo.. lol..
aim for at least B- for de next??
due to how smart i'm.. based on de mark..
B- <70-74>
B <75-79>
B+ <80-84>
A- <85-89>
A <90-100>


hah..daydreamin' ?? i know how smart i am..







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when de world fails on you..
you still have yourself to count on..
wat should i do..
i wan everythin' to be change..
i'm stil immature in some way.. in many ways..
but all i CAN say is i don't know how to grow up because i don't have any experiences to guide me through..
NO!!definitely NO cyrus!! GET MY WORDS??
you need time to learn about those little things tat you're lack ?
you seriously need lots of time but..how much time YOU left?
these few days has been a bit unstable for me..
i wasn't very well mentally..
but at de very least.. i was pretty calm when it comes to handlin' my emotions..
i'm glad i was calm n' tat i could think through some things..
at de very least...
it didn't affect me a lot except for a moment..
only at that moment..
did my tears fall like nobody's business...
after de class today..


jus don wanna home..
any1 can have a drink wit me?
i was so upset tat i cried..
i don't worry 'cos..
everything's goin' to be alright..
i believe in myself !!
who else i can depend on besides myself?
so once again..
i don't worry 'cos everything's goin' to be alright..
i believe in myself !!


i know it's showOff but watever...
guess wat..
i olrd had de skill to solve de whole rubik's cube within 3mins since longTime b4..
due to how smart i could get but...
wen i'm annoyin' by sumthin'..i had to spend longer time to make it...
i'd tried it b4 but today...
i couldnt made it even de only level..
brain dysfunction.. emo level 99+ ..
apply to my decision makin'..
which one is de one tat i'm lookin' for..
i thought tat simple decision should be easy..
but i was wron'..
de more simple de decision.. de harder it is to see de difference of each..
this makes it harder for me to decide wat i actually wan right now..
but actually i know wat i wan..


basically i think i'm just fine n' i really thank god for tat..
for those shit you'd given me..





cYrus7eleven™

Yay!! de new schoolLife are here once again (:
i'm here.. i cant wait to pen it down openly..
i'm not talkin' bout my borin'fuckin'stupid schoolLife but..
yeah!! first kindergarten life of my lovely niece..
a blank piece of paper.. with no marks or scrawls..
cyrus wants de paper to be filled with love.. knowledge..
basically de most happiest person is my mom...
de first granddaughter...
planned to havin' her schoolLife at singapore actually but..
havin' some document file problem..
anyway.. some overdue photos which were takin' lastCoupleWeek home..

my lovely niece

"one step at a time..
there's no need to rush..
it's like learnin' to fly..
we're here n' guidin' you to de best..
love ya 小熙 :) "





cYrus7eleven™

hAppY birThDaY sElina...
hapiEveryDay:)




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timetime waits for nobody..
time heal al wounds??
what everybody want is more time..
time to wake up..time to let go..
time to get more money..
yap!! agreed!!
last weekend b4 turn it to school life..


once again..
if you don't make de choice... de choice makes you ..
yap.. de choice makes cyrus ..
couldn't take sum subs i wish to for last sem..
wish to take abnormal psychology for de comin'sem..
but.. bout de PREREQUISITES.. psy 102..
AE-AE-AE.. wat else?
last sem .. MKT 101 - AE ...
another 4subs.. dono yet...
pray tat thin' will be alright..


no excuse pls cyrus!!! its because you didn't get de attention you used to get...
emo +workin' are just a lousy excuse. ..
am i right,... who agrees?
those who disagrees then fuck off lor..


once again..pray to de motherfuckin' god..




cYrus7eleven™

hapiNewYear2009
hAppY nEw yEar..
新年あけましておめでとうございます
seLamat tahunBaru 2009..
新年快乐 cYrus:)
2009 feliz año nuevo
नया साल मुबारक हो
新年快樂
feliç any nou 2009..
새해 복 많이 받으세요
sretna nova godina
godt nytår 2009
gelukkig nieuwjaar ..
manigong bagong taon
新年快樂 ..
hyvää uuttavuotta ..
Frohes neues Jahr ..
あけましておめでとう ..
buon anno ..
hAppY2009nEwYear..
an nou fericit2009..
해피 뉴 2009 년..
feliz año nuevo 2009 ..
cyrus_wAa!!!
kdaidklfakldh
hapiNewYear2009
hAppY nEw yEar..
新年あけましておめでとうございます2009
seLamat tahunBaru 2009..
新年快乐
2009 feliz año nuevo
नया साल मुबारक हो
新年快樂
feliç any nou 2009..
새해 복 많이 받으세요
sretna nova godina
godt nytår 2009
gelukkig nieuwjaar ..
manigong bagong taon
新年快樂 ..
hyvää uuttavuotta ..
Frohes neues Jahr ..
あけましておめでとう ..
buon anno ..
hAppY2009nEwYear..
an nou fericit2009..
해피 뉴 2009 년..
feliz año nuevo 2009 ..






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