again.. it not worth it..

but since it's not worth it..

why continue to be the doormat again n' again rite?

okay.. DE END..

p/s - welcome back kok..

it has been another long time since i posted my proper entry on this site..
hapi new year by de way..
January 2010 went by in a flash.. anyway i found some time to pen down sumthin' again..
blogs are misleadin'..
they reflect wat i feel at de moment.. not wat i feel everyday..
it's just a naggin' thought at de back of my mind..
i just wanna get it out of my chest n' channel out how i feel at tat point..


headache..
sometimes.. it not worth it..
but since it's not worth it.. why continue to be de doormat again n' again?
confusin' of whether i'm tired or sad.. confusin' at this moment..
livin' in a repeatin' life.. c'est la vie??
i'm jus sick of de life of mine..


i realized how fast things have changed within de past month..
it's been a long time..
i wouldn't have picked my life where i left off..
became stronger n' havin' de life i am havin' now..
delay for 1 more sem.. i have no choice..
i realize how i become more like a fadin' dream as each day passes n' it's as if i myself never really existed in my own life..


how well you've been doin'.. how fast your life has moved on n' how busy you are...
can i say.. tat i've been thinkin' of you a little too much recently..
i'm just tired and sick..
i've been workin' too hard n' i'm too exposed to de things about you..
tat's why..
you are tat faraway from me now..
can i jus ask - 你最近还好吗?
cyrus wishes you doin' wel n' hapi everyday.. i pray for this..


listenin' to de "wai mian de shi jie" of Karen Mok.. n'
it make me gettin' emo.. emo n' emo..
who care?

莫文蔚- 外面的世界..