life toOo short..

do watever you like..

okay... 3rd time my schoolMate askin' me about wat subjuct i'm talkin'... assignment..blakblakblak..
thinkin' about de past.. just wan to laugh it all off..
i was keep complain - school kinda sucked today.. ohwell.. school suck everyday..
but i miss my uni now.. quite..


ohwell.. i'm a little self-conscious these days...
don't really know wat happened to me but i sure did lost all of my ego..
after my tons of interview n' waitin'..
i startin' to accept de fact tat i'm not hotstuffs at all n' tat i have many many ugly ugly flaws..
i havent found a good reason to persuade myself to accept any stupid job i don like..
sometimes i really think life is a game of trickery.. dammit man!!
but.. i got no choice..
so tel me again.. i'm rite in my decision..


okay.. if i don't love myself.. who would love me?
intended to find a place to relax n' chill out..
just something random..
i wan alcohol..

ohH.. i'm here to wish every useless babi-s..
"selamat hari raya.. idiotzZz.. "
includin' me myself??
cal for McDelivery for my dinner..
okay.. 1set of FiletOFish n' Porridge for my dinner..
guess wat.. de receipt named me "Mr.Fairuz"..
myGod!! should i celebratin' de stupid raya together wit you guys idiot?
is it so difficult to pronoun my name CYRUS??
okay.. make it easier..
"cyber cafe got virus"... cyrus.. get it?
wat a funny MalayName Fairus.. lll
okay.. jus for my Raya then..


2nd month..
floodin' my emotions onto myself was just a way of good expression..
stil waitin' for job offer..
i know i'd been slackin' at home for month..
tired wit seekin'..
goodLuck fairus... lol..
it's cyrus okay..
godBless:)

hApiBirThDaY..

i'm tired..

september2009re.Start..
station life~ Hmmm.. sucks loh.. my stupid August!!fuck!!
but i'm not goin' to make my life suck ANYMORE!!
i'm gettin' a hang of it..
new life.. new cyrus..


things to accomplish now tat i have de mental strength n' de time..
1.love myself a tad more..
2.get a new job.. work harder.. need de extra money n' save save save..
3.get myself a car as soon as i can..
4.move further.. it really sucks to be stuck in de same spot when everyone is movin' on..


we all have choices.. we have got to make them..
good choice or bad choice..
stand firm on de choices i've made bcos i don't want to be left hangin' there..
havin' to deal with my frailty by myself ..
if i don't make de choice now..
de choice makes me..
de old stupid stupid dumb blonde me is gone!
i'm gonna live my life rite this time round..
let's just laugh at my history n' move on!


yap..cyrus.. you're NOT useless!!