hapiBirThDaY ~ weiky..
hapibIrthdAy ~ evanGel ..
hApibiRthDay ~ chester ..

n' then .. hapIpOorSales todaY .. FUCK!!!
fuckin tired!!

3 couple??? omg!! hen xiang tu leh.. yuck!! pui..hahaha.. o-ni-to-fo ~NO!!

if you're a die hard fan for LAME videos, here's one! you will probably laugh through de whole thin' if you get de lame drift. :)
just listen to de way they converse, how annoyin' !!!!!!
1 word - fuck!!
charlie de unicorn!!

life's pretty mundane but... i'm pretty tired now...
but then.. how annoyin' de stupid lrt after5...
fuck loh how.. you guys are damn enjoyin' push n' squeeze game..
soli.. i'm quit to starbucks...

tons of shitzz to excrete.. to escape??
lots of fres'd gone..
i felt nth fom their leavin'?
i might say yes, i am.. dumb rite?
jus don wanna think bout this...
i'm not as strong as wat you guys think..
actin' tough.. i'm jus presentin' de stronger way of mine..
why not just be myself?
cos i'm chicken.. i dislike de feel tat you guys worrin' bout me..
be tough..
i'm still strugglin' to adapt.. for everythin'..
stayin' or leave? i have not idea..
i need de very long time to fix myself into a new picture..
once again.. i'm fuckin' wish to leave 2..
but de pukima 2yrs ...
i'll mis you guys..

c'est La vie... i'm goin' to school.. goin' to work stil..
so i presume i'll have lots of work to do.. to cut it short i think cyrus is pretty busy..
don't you think so?
only cyrus needs to work on weekend n' after class sumtime..
only cyrus has to do research..assignment n' study on weekdays...
which happens to be his only rest time in lrt... (hah..pretty overstate..)
but i'm enjoyin' my life.. set no free to every mins..
to escape? NO lah..
apart fom tat i'm thankful to those who brought laughter into my life..

i think i've been lettin' myself down a little too much recently..
i'm still not performin' like how i should be back then..
life is stil not bein' lived to de fullest..
i totally need some rest but..
i have so many overdued payment to clear.. so i have to work..
i have lots of overdue(soon) homework to do.. so i have to do research..
not bcos i'm lazy.. it's jus i'm oso cute boy as you guys..
haha.. apparently.. it's bcos of i managed somehow but very poorly..

gosh, i need my sleep!!
for i'm a person who needs much sleep n' 5 odd hours everyday isn't exactly doin' very well for me..
i hope i can sleep well later..i hope ... ya..
be tough..

goodluck n' al de best to you my prettiest sister yong..
cyrus feels 10000 bu she de..
as wat i say.. sumthin' is jus let it unsaid..
as long as you know we're lovin' you n' care bout you..
cos we have pretty enuf tacit understandin' n' gettin' mature..
soli for endure cyrus's odd style for long.. i think jus 3 of you can bear of my weird style ..
you've askin me de embarrassed Q today - you cried?
yap..i did..cos i'm fuckin' bu she de actually..
but.. we have to fly to our dream n' move de 1st step...
n' it's oso de time for al of us to change..for de better for sure..
tcare of urself outside okay...n' thank sis..
love ya..

hapiBirthDaY to you - andy..

nitezz..

hApiBirThDaY to U ... demon ..
it's your 23 today ..
soli for we're al buz-ing.. you 2..
gettin' older loh..lol..

cyrus knows you gets really upset..
when i don't attend school but workin'..
when i'm smoke lots..
worryin' bout me..
i know tat you just want de best out of me..
i'll try my best to gettin' more free time n' acc you..
n' not to disappointin' you..
my loved ones n' those who care anymore..
thank for de understandin' n' carin'..
once again..
hapiBirthday to you..
love ya..

gettin' older lo..lol..
muack~

sometimes your feelings n' opinions are better left unsaid..
this world.. this stupid world...
even if this blog is a free for my expression...
i can't or i might end up hurtin' myself or others..
dumb right? but think about it..
why are there so many rules?
why are there so many hateful things?
why are we bound to all of these?

god i've learned my mistakes...
give me a purpose in life..
i'll treasure it this time...

i have loved..
i have hate...
i have suffered..
i have enuf shit to lead..

i wasn't born to hate.. i was taught to hate..
i wasn't born to cry.. i was taught to cry..
i wasn't born to be hapi.. but i wasn't taught to be hapi ..

i have my life..
stop to tcare of my life..
stop to annoyin' my fuckin' life..
i'll fall ...

jin tian zhen de hen bu kai xin..
mayb i'm tired..
i hope i could cry..

oh dear.. i've been so damn busy... i apologise...fuckin'busy..n' tired..
workin' for maxis roadshow at sg.wang this weekend..til sunday.. today was fun.. cos long time havent seen my maxis fres.. mis them lots...
fair was fun...i think...but feels kinda like i've wasted my time... tonnes of homework havent started yet...i don wanna fail again!! but nvm that... i wasted my time with fee!! i need money..more n' more...
GOODBYE AUGUST, HELLO SEPTEMBER! eh i think i should have typed that out at de beginnin' of this entry...nonono..beginnin' of de month...
okay i'm tired... cant think already...


OhYeah.. my new 7eleven bag.. my indonesian fre brought me fom HongKong n' China..
thank ya...

back to school.. schoolin'life again.. damn stress+borin'...YOU KNOW!!!
i'm back fom de 2mths semBreak..
HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE...
i used to cal it "HELL" UNI COLLEGE anyway.. then HELPHELPHELP.. ful of stressfuL ...
annoyin' fom my time table...
you can't believe how dumb it can get!
my majar can only choice fom de list below for this sem..

-Advanced Research Methodology
-Social Psychology
-Human Personality
-Conflict Theory and Resolution
-Counselling Skills
-Human Services
+ de minorPaper...

but then.. to be honest.. i failed de Research Methodology for last sem.. not fail lah.. jus AE..haha.. who care?? de worst thin' tat can even happen was...

i can only choice de certain subjects for my major.. cos of de only stupid Research Methodology... how fuck it could be?? jus fuck loh.. i don care...

tried to arrangin' my timeTable which can fix to my partTimeJob.. even tat de partTimer's shifts are flexible.. I WAN MONEY!!

so there's hardly any boundaries between my study n' workin'...
another thin' is i'm fuckin' busy currently... PLS!!

tat there was no more smoke breaks as well... although this doesn’t affect me but it’s stupid as well...

tat's so stupid rite?
so.. basically i think it's time for me to go because of de changin' environment n' de people..

sufferin' from this modified system.. commision for de maxisRoadshow..lol...

2nd day for my uni... ful of stressful..mood instability n' feelin' insecurity... can i cry?? summore de stressful may have on accompanyin' other problem.. wat pro?? this is nonYourBusinesss...but i'm respondin' more strongly stresssful fom my study rite now.. drivin' to be crazy soon...

life is so emptiness n' meaninglessness...

workin'studyin'workin'studyin' ....

tat's so stupid rite??

p/s : hapiBirthDay to cyrus?? ray always says 3.9 is my bday.. but mine is actually 9.3...

hapiBirthDay to you - real.. cyrus wishes you all de best...

de dark side has clouded my thoughts...
i can't seem to comprehend de vast mixture stirrin' up inside my head..
so many thoughts larger than what my brain can handle...
even if i reached a solution to my problems.. i probably would have a bigger problem turnin' fiction into reality or actual action..
so i guess this is where don't think so much..
comes into place..
gone back to my school life again.. n' earn a livin' fom maxis roadshow..
1st day of my 2nd yrs.. my brain totally blank..ful of stressful n' emptiness..
i probably would have a bigger problem soon.. goin' to leave here soon..
after 2months mayb..
i'm sick of this life of mine..
i'm tired...
fuckin'tired...