evengel..danielle..yishuang..onnZai..cYrus..seansean..
n' vic (camera man)..

"pretty"Down today..
i know i'm on hiatus n' i feel de need to type watever i feel rite know in here..
i just need a place to channel out my thoughts to make me feel better..
only here.. i can talk to nobody.. fuckin'Down..
"i had tried my best.. but stil couldn't get de answer..i "might" fail for my Biopsych.."
probably i'm jus not tryin' hard enuf..
hahahahhahahahahahahahahahaha...
i accepted tat "cyrus is a superSUPER idiot"...


now.. i'm kinda lost..
where next?wat next?how next?

mcD-ing again for my revision after de class..
but jus myCoffeeRefill+bread..
i'm starvin' n' yearnin' for some food to munch on..
i know it's unhealthy to keep bread-ing but wat to do?
i gotta save..
run out of money+TIME SOON!!


as time elapse.. i double my foot steps..
but i stil cant catchUp my study+assignment..
cos i'm not smart as others.. wat to do? born as a stupid..
2more days for de exam revision..
i need extraExtra-extraTime!! skip class or sleepin'Time?


guess wat.. i love BioPsychology..
tons of terminology to memorize.. fuckMe pls!!
i'm seriously dono wat to do...
life's pickin' up n' i have to juggle wit studies..work n' life..
jus fuckMe pls..

hapiValentine's day..
hapi-workin'-Valentine's day cyrus..
hapi3rd valentine's day myDemon..
thank for de valentine - SK ll ..

Christina Aguilera - Save Me From Myself
It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

when I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why
I'm crying'Cause when
I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myselfYou're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong
And don't ask me why
I love you

It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make meA better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

tag here to de MV

"pay" for earn a livin'...
2 more days to try...
i might quit..
no more money n' time for tyin'..
tired..

fuckin' pissed off wit de mgs today..
"tomolo go meetin' kepong"
suck!!de mgs meant "askin' or an order" ?
if you knew cyrus.. sure you know me..
i'll try everythin' to rebut wat i don like+force..
wat should i reply then?
"fuck off fom my life.. n' then go to hell.. nonono.. you'd only die after fuck your mom!!"


tol you already de motherfuckin' jibye.. don get into my life durin' de weekdays..
i'll only makin' love wit you guys durin' my only weekend..OKAY!!
so pls!!!!! don keep to ask me for de stupid ETIQA meetin' or watever!!!
drivin' to be crazy soon.. especially de time i'm rushin' for my stuff..
feel so annoyin'...
i'd tried my best to finish my business b4 get in to work..
wat else you expect.. de day i quit fom etiqa?? dammit!!
my result is moreMuch important than your jibye trainin'+meetin' OKAY!!!
once again..fuck off fom my life!! who care!!


so much things never do.. report..homework.. midterm SOON..
i'm goin' nuts..head goin' to explode...
2panadol enuf for migraine??
me this few weeks keep late n' mcD-ing nia..
mcD for studyin' n' assignment-ing cos i'd been very lazy at home..
tooo lazy to study at home seriously...
sumtime i wonder..wat happenin' to me?
i'll jus slackin' at home..
i know clearly that slackin' will brin' me nowhere..
i know its time to buck up in my studies..
prefer outside..


i'll try not to isolate myself that much.. but if i do..
pls don blame me..
cos its jus part of cyrus.. pls do understand...
no matter wat..
i'm stil love you guys..


ONCE AGAIN!! ETIQA?? WHO CARE..
for sure i love money!!


p/s - oMg!! i got few pimple already=.=lll

i need a change of my handsome outlook...blush lol..
had had my fuckin' shortshort hair cut T.T


thank my demon..
you always had a way with me..
hapiCINAvalentine's day..lol..


fishLeong's new song..
feelin' touch wit tat...

cheeHua..sYong..stupid jazz.. selina..cyrus..ivan..

McD.coffee - insomnia
get de badCold


hapiAssignment-ing

after school.. ampangPark McD again today...
have been lettin myself down a little too much today..
no.. this few days..
i'm still not performin' like how i should be..
cant really catch up my study..
i feel so alone sumtime.. most of de time..
i know i'm very choosy.. for everythin'..
like i'm livin' in my own world..


i hate de moment of group assignment nowadays..
"can i make it individual.. sir.. cos i can stil handle it"..
"NO! you have to find at least 1 pp"..


i suddenly keep my mount shut..
even i don seem to really know how i feel n' why i behave like this..
no one seems to know why i behave like this..
i'm livin' in my own world again..
i had this sour feelin' in heart tat made me feel like cryin'..
nobody care bout this anyway..
so why cry? ask myself..
no point to doin' this anymore..
so jus hide tat feelin' al de time..
jus go for my life n' wear a fake smile everyday..
wear it n' don reveal a single hint of unhapi..
even though deep inside i'm bleedin..
be realistic.. it's far too easy to fall prey..


if only thin' can get back to how it was last time..
i don think i'll feel so isolated anymore..
i m not anti-social.. jus forgot how to approach people in my life..
i'm don have any attitude problems..
jus tat i forgot how to smile fom de bottom of my heart..
worryin' bout my family.. de most i care about..
but i can talk to nobody.. i trust nobody now..
no one can understand cyrus..
i jus need a talk.. but i choice to be alone..
whenever i'm down.. i'll only count on my mom..
cal her after school today..
"mom..wat are you doin' there? free to talk to me? anythin' you do..don ask me wat happened.. cyrus jus wanna talk to you mom"
talkin' to my mom really made me feel a whole lot lighter in de heart...
i mis her so much..


if only i can go back to de time in de past..
i wan de time where i can see her smile...
de time where cyrus n' kok are beside her..
includin' my lovely niece now..
jus 4 of us.. jus a dinner.. jus simple..
then i can be truly hapi..
but now.. it seems to be driftin' further away...
i jus wan my mom's smile.. smile fom de bottom of heart..
i know.. de amount of pain she had withstand is unbelievable..
until now.. how can i make her hapi..
wat i know is jus make her woli n' disappoint her..
nearly cry to her today..
i know it's selfish to be a burden to her..
but who else i can talk to?
how much can i rely on a friend as i grow older?
i trust nobody..
i think i'm becomin' a pervert..
i've been stayin' with myself pretty much n' i'm kinda cut off fom de outside world this few years ..

eve..panghong..ying..jayson..anthony..cyrus..karen..

oMg!! jayson's birthday..

see de different? b4 n' after de cake D.I.Y..

hAppY birThDaY.. jayson:) eve.. jayson..

wall scribblin'.. sg.wang..

to: jayson.. happy birthday.. from:cyrus.eve.karen.ying.hong.anthony..

kim gary.. 50% discount dinner..