de weather is fuckin' HOT!!
seriously no kiddin'..

life sucks for now..
cYrus.. live with it!

i seriously dono wat to blog actually..
mcD-ing again..n' got noMood to DoRevision..
for de past few days.. i was really busy+stress..
i was on de verge of tearin' myself apart..
got no time to prepare de presentation assignment due to workin'..
al in messy-est.. workin'suck!!fuckin'stressss...
burst into tears after worked last friday.. it is so sudden..
be glad tat i have settled my emotions b4 turn in..
maybe i have not settled my emotions yet..
maybe i'm just supressin' them..
jus don't want to let all this emotions take over me..


i failed to manage myTime..
i didn't know tat i couldn't handle both work n' school at de same time..
when i thought i initially could..
think bout this.. it was seriously tough wen i decided to join de job..
gradually.. this lifestyle finally took a toll on me n' i grew lazier n' lazier..
bcos of this.. i neglected my studies n' i've stopped attendin' school..
yes i know.. this is totally an unfruitful lifestyle like wat i've wanted in de first place..
although i'm totally immersed in work n' earnin' more money..
but i remindin' myself al de time..
studies are still de most important to me..
it is still my responsibility to complete my education cos i'm still a student..
studies should be my main priority n' work should come after tat..
why you work? cos i wanna study.. cos i have myDream..


it's really great to have this feelin' of makin' myLife packed..
n' tat i'm always doin' somethin'.. at de very least..
i don't think tat i'm wastin time tat much anymore..
it gives me a sense of fulfillment n' accomplishment when i'm busy..
de worse thing is .. it's not just a few but a handful..
i know it's goin' to be weird sayin' this..
but busiest is de only time i'm not feelin' any loneliness or emptiness within me..
this is really de life tat i'm enjoyin' right now..
studyin' n' workin'..
jus be tough..


wat bout love? hahaha...
stil persistIn my stupid concept - nothin' last forever..
"steve brokenUp wit me".. silvia was cryin' to me last few days..
to be honest.. i'm seriously uninterested to de love story..
so people!!pls stop sharin' your happyORsad moment wit cyrus..
nonMyBusiness.. jus fuckOff!!
i'm feelin' glad tat people fallin' in love..
but i seriously wont sympathy for you guys wen ...
don tel me how much you miss de guy..
don tel me you cant live without any1..
you can take tomorrow n' de plans you made..
you can take de music tat you'll never play b4..
all your broken dreams.. take everythin'..
just take it away..
but... jus don bother myLife..borin' wit love story..
you can assume you never have yesterday wit de guys..
but you stil have tomolo wit yourLife..
don touch it n' brought all my fuckin' senses back..
it reminded me of de pain n' agony i've been through..
you were careless to let yourself carried away by your emotions..
jus remind yourself.. you're not goin' to be de fool for de second time..
tat all!! this is de only thin' you wanna learn..
don't hate de game..
hate de players of de game..
this is de time to get mature.. get yourself busy n' busier..
de only happiest moment is...
when you totally have no time for them or to consider a relationship at de moment..


now.. there's more to come after today..
things are really gonna get busy..
whew..cyrus is goin' to disappear fom workin' for this coupleWeek..
life is finally gettin' back on track..
studyin' for de exam.. EXAM TIME AGAIN!!
at least..
i'm goin' to get movin' n' adaptin' some changes tat will benefit me for good..

happYbirThDaY to de monozygotic twin..lol..
al-De-Best ya.. kim+sing..
muackz~


p/s- workin' again this weekend!! again!!my life full wit stressful again!!

there's many damn funny people in town..
some of them is whom i call "idiot"..
okay.. let start fom here..
wat's de meanin' of aggressive.. rude.. or brutal..
ohSoli..this is a very personal blog of cyrus..
definitely NOT an educational circles for you guys..
so?! if any1 of you wish to know more bout "personality"..
get yourself de psychoText..okay?


pls lah!! don judge people wit de only basic sense..
'human being' act differently in different time..
sayin' de rude words doenst mean he's rude or unpoliteness..
whereas..readin' bible doesnt mean he's god.. holy or pure...
so pls.. LEARNIN' WITH A DIFFERENCE!!
don learnin' in a only conventional education system..
ohH guys.. i didnt ask you to comments at any of my entries..
(tat why i keep my 'comment space')
i like de writin' style which full of vulgar language ..it's cool+fun here..
how childish+innocent you guys link de vulgar language to "anger+rude" al de time..
if you knew cyrus.. he's a stupid who'd jus talk de nonhuman language wen he's in de goodMood..
if he hate sum1 bitterly.. he doesnt even talk n' care bout de shits..
anyway.. who care bout how you guys think?
vulgar.. gentle?.. friendly.. unpolite.. poor...cute..handsome?
i don give a damn.. n' still do..


so people!!you got no right to judge me..
myWords.. myStuff.. myBelief..myStyles..
i have myLife.. n' it's my life n' not yours..
how inexperienced people judgin' me due to this lookin' exterior of mine..
damn funny hor..lol..
probably you all aren't in it n' tat's why you can't really see things from my point of view..
but i just wan to tell these people with such thinkin' to SHUT DE FUCK UP..
you aren't me... you don't know how n' wat its means..
so stop standin' by n' pin pointin' at me..
sayin' all this fuckin' crap..
i don even wan you all to imagine yourself bein' in my shoes..
you are just imaginin' it! but no in de same picture wit me..
how much you kno wat de damn inside my mind?
how can you feel wat i really feel then?
such things must really happen to you..
b4 you can know how it really feels..
also.. i like tat feelin'..
fuckOff if you disagreed.. who care?


IS THIS YET ANOTHER MOOD SWING?
no lah.. think so much..hahah..
i have so many unanswered questions n' i hope tat some1 can answer all of them for me..
lazy to explain as usual.. especially those unrelated busyBodies..
but who can possibly answer them?
probably bcos of fear ... maybe keepin' everythin' to myself will be de best thin' to do.. hahaha..
or am i just so dependent n' i need to be more independent now?
i'm stron'? like shit only..
but i'll never let people see de weak side of me..
see wat's inside my underwear enuf lah.. lol..
i'll be so stron'.. tat it shocks al of you?


Yay! de weekend are over once more..
wat bout de presentation lastSaturday?
okayOK loh.. better than de stupid mock presentation..
oHh!!thank U so much for de new towel ya..my demon..
have a nice bath:)
a sleepy monday after de parttime job..
niceDay..

happy meaningless april fools'Day..
i can't believe how proud i was to annouce in de last few entries tat i will never miss school again..
but look at me now.. i end up missin'cLass again today:(


yesterdayNite.. i was doin' some revision for bioPsy..
i did only a few pages n' i endUp feelin' very pekCek..
bcos i donno how to memorize most of de keyTerms..
i was like WHAT DE FUCK after readin' this..
it's like so annoyed can?
i felt even more WHAT THE FUCK after tat..lol..
okay!!endUp watchin' "HOUSE" until 6am..
i know clearly tat i wasn't in de rite mood to read on it anymore..
yap!! you're rite ivan..
cyrus become addicted to "HOUSE" once he'd started to watch it..


oh!!our psy201 experiment's fine lastWeek..
"The Effects of PostEvent Misinformation and Delay in Passage of Time on Eyewitness Memory"
thank for those participants who were takin' part in de experiment..
but de mock presentation's suck!!sigh~
dammit!!i don't know am i scarin' myself or wat..
durin' de time of public speakin'.. i actually found myself starin' blankly at de screen at de time..
tryin' myBest to construct a proper sentence for de presentation but..
it must be due to de lack of readin' n' practice... (except de textBook!!)
oh yah!! i jus realised my level of english likes shit!!
nonono.. i correct my words..
it is not " jus realised" .. you'd never good in this at all okay!!!
wat de HELL !! this is no cool OKAY!!
after this lesson.. i decided to read more n' more n' more to brush up my standard of english!!
improve myself!!