life~ Hmmm... sucks..
johor-ing again..
might havin' my nationalDay countdown inside de train..
how stupid??


my bro is an idiot.. total idiot!!
fuckOff!!eatShit!!go to Hxxx!!!

this weekend was supposed to havin' our trip to p.pinang..
once again.. we postpone de trip bcos of CYRUS!!!
wen you check wit Eng.dictionary..
postpone mean "to delay until a FUTURE time"...
but accordin' to OUR dectionary..
FUTURE mean infinity (big-S,2009)*.. lol..
so??
can we wanna shorten de "unbounded time" takes to make de REprocessin'..
b4 end of 2009?
since.. jean..yong n' jazzshit couldnt make it toooo... lol..
we'd planned to trip together wat..lol..
anyway it's my fault again..
ribuan minta maaf.. soli x 1000-infinity.. lll


catch "UP" today at pavillion..
pls!! set a rule lah!!
cinema is not allow for under age n' idiot!!
fuckin' noisy those stupid kindergarten idiot+sss..
lessEducated ah.. your parents didnt teach you tat cant makin' noise wen watchin' movie?
yap.. i'm talkin' bout those kindergarten idiot's parents.. fuckU!!


anyway.. i was not "cyrus" today..
you're tryin' ? as i do..
fuckNite!!

I'M SICK!
down wit flu.. cough.. slightFever..


today was supposed to be a busy day for me...
i'm supposed to wake up at 9 am for an interview at KL centre..
after tat.. i'm supposed to meet up wit de cust for some stuff but..


my days as a student has finally came to a closure..
surely now.. i'm lookin' for a suitable fulTime job for myself..
say goodbye to studentLife!
seriously.. i'm livin' in de moment already..
like its already happenin'.. i'll enjoy my workin' time..
ever have one of those dreams tat i want to fulfil but de rite opportunity have yet to arrive..
i know wat i wan..i'm sure..
i've been feelin' very much alone last fewWeeks..
dealin' with my emotions by myself even though i have my fres by my side..
insecurities.. disappointments n' fears


yesterday was time well spent. :)
thank everyone..

just feel like there was a need to update my blog b4 goin' back to johor..
so here i am..
i mis my mum.. my brother n' my lovely niece..
thank for beside cyrus wen i'm feelin' lonely n' insecure..
once again.. cyrus got tons of shitzzZz to due wit..
pick myself up.. anyone??
cyrus cant fall down..
i tol myself i must keep up..
any fuckin' reason.. i have to be tough..
i have to move further..
this is wat can i do..
started fom scratch again but good things really never seems to go my way lah..
worrin' bout my family..
put asides de anxiety fom my study n' workin' n' movin' parts..
this is another mood swing?
i feel tat god is pickin' on me.. is this some test?
god.. then i accept al de shits you'd given me..
thank you so much.. fucker..
i'll keep movin' after my tearzz..
i'm unhappy actually..
i don't know why i'm but there is just this clear sense of unhappiness lingerin inside..
is it really so hard to be happy?
kept tellin' myself..
you must be mature in your thinkin' n' actions..
i will do so..
otherwise cyrus will be labelled as bein' childish or immature..


nth last forever..
remember de thin' we wanted?
it doesn't matter anymore bcos wat i want now is to be away fom other..
will it be de same tomorrow?
will it be de same a year fom now?
do you still wan to be away fom me?
wen i start to look back..
wen i miss you guys n' realise de things i could have done differently..
would i start to regret?
cyrus doesnt know.. even now..
jus feelin' tat i'm a trouble maker for you guys..
mayb.. de longer we're apart de more distance we're placin' between each other..
maybe time isn't really much of a solution afterall..
as wat House said - doin' thins change things..
not doin' things leaves things exactly as they were..
but maybe its already too late..
but lovin' would be de same bcos we care each others..
thank you..