- 颜.赛勒斯 -

this is de entry for you...
i know you might not go tru it at this moment..
this is de suffer-est moment for you..
n' i know.. if i was you.. i prefer to be alone..

it's like a mixture of feelings tat you're havin' now n' it feels terrible sometimes..
even though.. it might be unimportant as to who do you love more bcos they're already not a part of your life..

at this moment..you might still cannot stand yourself bein' like this..
but.. just stay away fom him mayb...
you're on de way to your future..
it wasn't de wron' move.. you might ended up for de better..him as wel..
watch over it... after all n' all..
it's another day n' you're turnin' in soon.. you will still be yourself..
i can un' tat you're unsure of your own feelings..
anyway.. does it really matter how much you love him?
it's not even part of your life now...
so why you're thinkin' about it?
so why are you thinkin' so much?
what for? are you tryin' to answer to your own feelings?
who do you love more? yourself? your family? your future?
why do you feel this way?


gotta be strong..
you'll be reminded of him somehow.. even when he isn't there at all..
somehow things related to him can just pop out..
out of nowhere.. to remind you tat he was onced there..
de memories will just come back n' de only thin' you can do?
is to fight it all back so tat they won't affect you..
this is seriously so hard for you.. i know..
cos i'd underwent about it..
you have to fight back all de emotions tat is welled up inside you..
n' try de best to get on with your life..
easier said than i done...
you're goin' to growin' up after all of this..

if you don't even help yourself.. then who can help ?
true enuf.. people around us can show de way n' try thier best to knock some sense into our brain..
but in de end..it is still up to yourself...
whether do you want to accept wat they say..
take on de path tat they'd showed you ... rite?
tat everythin' just seems to be goin' downhill..
sometimes.. you'll think back to how happy those times were..
but now de reality tat is in front of you ...
is tat things have changed..

you should not continue dwellin' on de past but you should look into de future..
wat is de best thin' for you to do?
you thought about this n' you finally made a decision..
maybe when you treat him as a friend n' not someone you love deeply...
things will be better..
at least.. it won't result in de both of you bein' enemies..
in this way.. you won't be tat emotional.. sensitive n' you won't tend to think a lot too..
in this way.. you won't be feelin' pressurized too..
it's seriously nothin' now.. can you still be how you used to be?
pick yourself up..big girl cant fall down..
keep to tel yourself you mus keep up..
for any fuckin' reason.. have to be tough.. this is wat can you do..
is this a test for you? watever..
need not pray to de jibye motherfucking god..
it is al depend on yourself..

no matter how much of your life have changed...
you're not sittin' inside de picture alone..
you stil got tons of stupid pukima's fres.. your family..

c'est la vie.. this is life...
we're sick n' tired of this life of us.. if anyshits want it pls take it..
we must struggle for de future..

big girl..for sure you can cry...

cyrus wants to see a hapi you again in short.. okay?
promised..






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