- 颜.赛勒斯 -

first at all.. welcome MarchDays..
de birthdayMonth of cYrus..but..
i felt tat birthday is jus a pointless part of my life since lastYear..
jus wish to have a silentBirthday anyway ..
i'm seriously gettin' older indeed..
thank mLee for de BVLGARY omnia amethyste perfume..
feel really touch.. since i expect no-present for my birthday..
thank for de care toooo..


besides de messy life.. i'm havin' a new shit to due in my life recently...
planned to move.. yap!!seriously..
de security here is superSAFE!! PUKIMA!!SUCK!!JIBYE!!FUCK!!
but i have no idea wre can i switch to..
honestly.. i'm fuckin' scared of changin'..it's terrible!!
even though my life is messed up..
i'm not thinkin' too much because my life is indeed messedUp..
how do i know my life is messed up n' tat i'm not thinkin' too much?
cos it's my life n' it's not yours..
so i definitely i know it better than you..
look at how stupid people can get..
who want??


i really felt tat no one really understands me n' i never really understood them either..
mayb i'd changed..yap!!definitely i'd changed..
don persist in de point tat why i want tat last time but changed my mind now..
people think differently.. al de time..
i'm no longer de cyrus last time.. i know you guys did change too..
how much can i rely on a friend as i grow older?
de happinessMoment seems to be driftin' further away..
mayb i'm thinkin' tooooooMuch..
it's really depressin' to know tat n' i just seem to hold back myself ..
it just came pourin' down when i lock myself back into tat tiny space i have..
everythin' is in a mess..
my lifestyle..my studies..my work..n' my family...
every little bits n' pieces of my life is in a mess..
n' i can't seem to get them organized n' planned out..
i can't even seem to prioritize de things in my life..
n' i can't even carry out simple everyday plans tat i have..
i'm afraid tat i will be stuck in here forever..
i don't wish to remain in a state like this for de rest of my life...


how would it be like?
i'm goin' to make a change for sure..
it's goin' to happen..
at tat point in time..
i'm not emo..
i'm not sensitive..
i'm not havin' any mood swings..
in case tat everythin' cant move smoothly like wat we wish to be.. how?
i don mind to quit..
since tat we got nth in de end..
since i'm clingin' to my point..
soli for i'm obstinate..


i've been missin' work this couple week anyway..
i've to work harder n' harder for de next..
myStudies as well..


P/S - honestly.. i'm not expect any present for my birthday..
so pls my demon.. save money okay!!