- 颜.赛勒斯 -

i seriously dono wat to blog actually..
mcD-ing again..n' got noMood to DoRevision..
for de past few days.. i was really busy+stress..
i was on de verge of tearin' myself apart..
got no time to prepare de presentation assignment due to workin'..
al in messy-est.. workin'suck!!fuckin'stressss...
burst into tears after worked last friday.. it is so sudden..
be glad tat i have settled my emotions b4 turn in..
maybe i have not settled my emotions yet..
maybe i'm just supressin' them..
jus don't want to let all this emotions take over me..


i failed to manage myTime..
i didn't know tat i couldn't handle both work n' school at de same time..
when i thought i initially could..
think bout this.. it was seriously tough wen i decided to join de job..
gradually.. this lifestyle finally took a toll on me n' i grew lazier n' lazier..
bcos of this.. i neglected my studies n' i've stopped attendin' school..
yes i know.. this is totally an unfruitful lifestyle like wat i've wanted in de first place..
although i'm totally immersed in work n' earnin' more money..
but i remindin' myself al de time..
studies are still de most important to me..
it is still my responsibility to complete my education cos i'm still a student..
studies should be my main priority n' work should come after tat..
why you work? cos i wanna study.. cos i have myDream..


it's really great to have this feelin' of makin' myLife packed..
n' tat i'm always doin' somethin'.. at de very least..
i don't think tat i'm wastin time tat much anymore..
it gives me a sense of fulfillment n' accomplishment when i'm busy..
de worse thing is .. it's not just a few but a handful..
i know it's goin' to be weird sayin' this..
but busiest is de only time i'm not feelin' any loneliness or emptiness within me..
this is really de life tat i'm enjoyin' right now..
studyin' n' workin'..
jus be tough..


wat bout love? hahaha...
stil persistIn my stupid concept - nothin' last forever..
"steve brokenUp wit me".. silvia was cryin' to me last few days..
to be honest.. i'm seriously uninterested to de love story..
so people!!pls stop sharin' your happyORsad moment wit cyrus..
nonMyBusiness.. jus fuckOff!!
i'm feelin' glad tat people fallin' in love..
but i seriously wont sympathy for you guys wen ...
don tel me how much you miss de guy..
don tel me you cant live without any1..
you can take tomorrow n' de plans you made..
you can take de music tat you'll never play b4..
all your broken dreams.. take everythin'..
just take it away..
but... jus don bother myLife..borin' wit love story..
you can assume you never have yesterday wit de guys..
but you stil have tomolo wit yourLife..
don touch it n' brought all my fuckin' senses back..
it reminded me of de pain n' agony i've been through..
you were careless to let yourself carried away by your emotions..
jus remind yourself.. you're not goin' to be de fool for de second time..
tat all!! this is de only thin' you wanna learn..
don't hate de game..
hate de players of de game..
this is de time to get mature.. get yourself busy n' busier..
de only happiest moment is...
when you totally have no time for them or to consider a relationship at de moment..


now.. there's more to come after today..
things are really gonna get busy..
whew..cyrus is goin' to disappear fom workin' for this coupleWeek..
life is finally gettin' back on track..
studyin' for de exam.. EXAM TIME AGAIN!!
at least..
i'm goin' to get movin' n' adaptin' some changes tat will benefit me for good..