- 颜.赛勒斯 -

actually i'm happy..

even thought gotten wat i wan..

and i'll have jus gotten wat i wan fom my effort..

jus see i dare to dare not to get it..

prayin? those shits will jus didnt come true in life..

my mind is blank..

still..my stupid useless brother really disappointin' us lots..

cyrus really doesnt wan to think bout him anymore..

how dumb i can be?

he can goes die and has his shit stuff back into his ass!!

can he please stop annoyin' every1 around him..

especially my mom.. fuck off fom her life please!!

fuck off fom de world kok..

i'm deeply saddened by everythin' of him..

mum plan to tcare of my lovely niece and send her to s'pore for her kindergarten life..

i know she loves and worry bout agnes so much..

i know she wanna be with agnes all de time..

so am i.. actually i mis and worry bout you guys so much..

she ask me suddenly.. are you able to afford this?

yap.. i answered.. i think i can do it..

soli mum.. cyrus didnt manage to save up enuf for de dream house in short..

but i'll try my very best to do it..

jus asked myself fuck off everythin' besides workin' and earn more money..

i myself have enuf shit to deal with..

if only i can go back to de time in de past..

i wan de time where i can see mum's smile..
jus simple..
then i can be truly hapi..
it seems to be driftin' further away now...
i jus wan my mom be hapi all de time..

smile fom de bottom of heart..
i know.. de amount of pain she had withstand is unbelievable..
until now.. how can i make her hapi..

i know it's selfish to be a burden to her..

who else she cans talk to besides cyrus?
how much can her rely on me?

i'm pretty lucky cos i have you mum..

i've really good life bcos of you..

i totally need some rest but..

so many thoughts larger than wat my brain can handle..

thinkin' of change de work environment..

but i cant take de risk of losin' my current job..

hate it cos i'm havin' mood swints..

i know you are tired cyrus..

it's goin' to be over soon..

once again.. i pray for de motherfuckin' god again..