- 颜.赛勒斯 -

end of JULY..
still.. still n' stillzzZz..
cyrus is considerin' whether he wanna leave de 5years memories or not..
first n' foremost..
thank for everythin' you-s have given..
it's more much priceless treasure than everythin'..
its amazin'.. de way you guys make me feel complete..
i have so many personal things to say but yet i can't seem to pen it down in here..


i always confuse.. yap..i am..
i woke up this mornin'.. n' i think to myself..
"damn i'm still here".. (de situation but no de environment..)
have been slackin' for weeks.. stupid useless cyrus!!FUCK-U!!!
i prayed to tat fucker.. yap i meant god...
to stop my heart.. just stop it.. but he didnt..
i went on thinkin' how to break myself fom de rest of de slackin'world..
i'm sure there are times where my life sucks ..unlucky stuff..


good things never seems to go my way recently..
personal+family..
cousin is gettin' better now..
but my 2nd uncle is stil waitin' for de LungCancer operation..
worrin' bout my uncle.. how if it gettin' worsens?
gone back to johor for de last couple weeks..
but i can do nth bout tat..


OhYa!!wat a happiest day for me..
my brother is back..
nearly cry wen he cal cyrus jus now..
cyrus misSss you so much my lovely kok..
gettin' back to johor soon..
cyrus will give you a SuperVery bigbig HUG..
no woli.. we are here for you.. love ya:)






once again..
no matter how much you pray to the god..star..chicken..your dog.. de shit n' etc..
it just couldn't happen..
just didnt come true.. lol..
consider i'm a atheist...
but i'm stil goin' to continue doin' it..
couse i belif de fucker..
then i accept all de shits he'd given me.. thank you so much..


everythin' else is secondary..
i just need some peace..
i just wan my family happy everyday:)