- 颜.赛勒斯 -

just feel like there was a need to update my blog b4 goin' back to johor..
so here i am..
i mis my mum.. my brother n' my lovely niece..
thank for beside cyrus wen i'm feelin' lonely n' insecure..
once again.. cyrus got tons of shitzzZz to due wit..
pick myself up.. anyone??
cyrus cant fall down..
i tol myself i must keep up..
any fuckin' reason.. i have to be tough..
i have to move further..
this is wat can i do..
started fom scratch again but good things really never seems to go my way lah..
worrin' bout my family..
put asides de anxiety fom my study n' workin' n' movin' parts..
this is another mood swing?
i feel tat god is pickin' on me.. is this some test?
god.. then i accept al de shits you'd given me..
thank you so much.. fucker..
i'll keep movin' after my tearzz..
i'm unhappy actually..
i don't know why i'm but there is just this clear sense of unhappiness lingerin inside..
is it really so hard to be happy?
kept tellin' myself..
you must be mature in your thinkin' n' actions..
i will do so..
otherwise cyrus will be labelled as bein' childish or immature..


nth last forever..
remember de thin' we wanted?
it doesn't matter anymore bcos wat i want now is to be away fom other..
will it be de same tomorrow?
will it be de same a year fom now?
do you still wan to be away fom me?
wen i start to look back..
wen i miss you guys n' realise de things i could have done differently..
would i start to regret?
cyrus doesnt know.. even now..
jus feelin' tat i'm a trouble maker for you guys..
mayb.. de longer we're apart de more distance we're placin' between each other..
maybe time isn't really much of a solution afterall..
as wat House said - doin' thins change things..
not doin' things leaves things exactly as they were..
but maybe its already too late..
but lovin' would be de same bcos we care each others..
thank you..